reminess
11-04-2006, 11:03 AM
Hi everyone my name is reminess. I am viewing your site for the first time today.
I know that I have clinical depression (no meds, no funds) but it wasn't until recently that I realized that I have anxiety also. I think it may be GAD. I always wondered why I was frightened of being home alone. I moved into my house 3 yrs ago and when ever my daughter went to visit/ sleepover god-mother's house or summer vacation to florida I had this extreme fear. I was scared to be home alone. All of these situations would enter my mind.... I would have the baby sleep with me. That was my comfort. Funny since neither could do anything anyway but it was the fact that I wasn't alone. At night before we sleep I normally have to check the alarm at least 2-3 times, more if I've forgotten that I checked it.
I went to real estate school last yr and I withdraw from everyone. I made 2-3 friends but other than that I didn't really talk to anyone. I grew up that way. Meaning that I tend to withdraw if I don't know people and I'm not comfortable in large group settings. Recently, at church they had a different service on sat night. They wanted us to get into groups of 6 and pray for eachother etc. I felt the anxiety as soon as they said it. everyone started praying for eachother and as they were, I was thinking what i could and would say and when my turn came I did so badly because I also have a fear of speaking publically. I forced myself to speak- not wanting to but because I felt backed in a corner and because I want to make steps to conquer my fears. But I was so disappointed with the outcome. I can listen in a group but contribution is something else.
These are just a few of my situations. I just want some feed back from you all. Maybe today, will be the start of the rest of my life. I am tired of feeling this way. I plan on seeking help so that I can help my oldest daughter who has ADHD. I've become tired of being tired and I guess I am now ready. Thank you all for listening :tongue:
I know that I have clinical depression (no meds, no funds) but it wasn't until recently that I realized that I have anxiety also. I think it may be GAD. I always wondered why I was frightened of being home alone. I moved into my house 3 yrs ago and when ever my daughter went to visit/ sleepover god-mother's house or summer vacation to florida I had this extreme fear. I was scared to be home alone. All of these situations would enter my mind.... I would have the baby sleep with me. That was my comfort. Funny since neither could do anything anyway but it was the fact that I wasn't alone. At night before we sleep I normally have to check the alarm at least 2-3 times, more if I've forgotten that I checked it.
I went to real estate school last yr and I withdraw from everyone. I made 2-3 friends but other than that I didn't really talk to anyone. I grew up that way. Meaning that I tend to withdraw if I don't know people and I'm not comfortable in large group settings. Recently, at church they had a different service on sat night. They wanted us to get into groups of 6 and pray for eachother etc. I felt the anxiety as soon as they said it. everyone started praying for eachother and as they were, I was thinking what i could and would say and when my turn came I did so badly because I also have a fear of speaking publically. I forced myself to speak- not wanting to but because I felt backed in a corner and because I want to make steps to conquer my fears. But I was so disappointed with the outcome. I can listen in a group but contribution is something else.
These are just a few of my situations. I just want some feed back from you all. Maybe today, will be the start of the rest of my life. I am tired of feeling this way. I plan on seeking help so that I can help my oldest daughter who has ADHD. I've become tired of being tired and I guess I am now ready. Thank you all for listening :tongue: