Gladys
06-16-2011, 05:21 AM
It's been said that you teach best what you most need to learn.
Well, I answered a question on this forum by writing that someone should be honest. Then I got to thinking about what I'd written, and I realised that I wasn't being honest with my therapist about who I am.
I'd told her my anxiety symptoms, but the person who had them was a lot less vulnerable than I had explained. I told her about the person who everyone I know relates to, which is real. However, I didn't let on about the me who's so afraid and just as real.
In my last session, I told my therapist I'd lied but not willfully. She said I should try to present the real me to her when I saw her. I agreed.
One of my worries (and from what my therapist said is not uncommon) that I'll lose control, go into a mental hospital and be overmedicated, etc. I gave her the analogy of feeling I was standing on thin ice and if it cracked, I'd sink into the mental health system.
My point there is that if my vulnerable self is beneath this ice, I acknowledge that self and with help make that person stronger, I can't sink when the ice cracks!
So I have to turn to myself and say, yes, honesty's the only way forward.
Well, I answered a question on this forum by writing that someone should be honest. Then I got to thinking about what I'd written, and I realised that I wasn't being honest with my therapist about who I am.
I'd told her my anxiety symptoms, but the person who had them was a lot less vulnerable than I had explained. I told her about the person who everyone I know relates to, which is real. However, I didn't let on about the me who's so afraid and just as real.
In my last session, I told my therapist I'd lied but not willfully. She said I should try to present the real me to her when I saw her. I agreed.
One of my worries (and from what my therapist said is not uncommon) that I'll lose control, go into a mental hospital and be overmedicated, etc. I gave her the analogy of feeling I was standing on thin ice and if it cracked, I'd sink into the mental health system.
My point there is that if my vulnerable self is beneath this ice, I acknowledge that self and with help make that person stronger, I can't sink when the ice cracks!
So I have to turn to myself and say, yes, honesty's the only way forward.