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birdman1967
06-10-2011, 05:53 PM
Hi Everyone,

This is gonna be a long read and I am gonna be extremely honest about what I have been going through as I am looking for help. I was introduced to a substance called herbal incense back in November of 2009. I have a job where I cannot partake in any illicit activities such as marijuana, so my friends told me about something that was sold legally in gas stations, tobacco stores and smoke shops that produced similar type feelings to that of said substance. I began smoking these herbal incenses thinking they were nothing more than various plant materials. Fast forward to December of 2010, I took one puff and got an elevated heart rate, I couldnt breathe and I felt as though I was gonna have a heart attack. These feelings lasted for 2-3 hours, my BPM were around 180-200 and eventually that night I checked into the ER. I found that there was a chemical in the blends that I was smoking and nothing is known about them.

That was the first time I have had a "panic attack" in my entire life, never had prior anxiety or anything like that. After that night, the next 6 days I couldnt even eat, sleep or anything. I felt as though I was gonna die. That day also, I quit smoking cigarrettes which I consumed for 13 years at a rate of 1 pack per day. Since then, I have batteled insomnia, chest pains, shortness of breath, tingling, and various abd pains. I went to my dr and they ran a gamut of tests which were all negative. I had an Echocardiogram, Chest Xray, Pulmonary function test, stress test, ultrasound on my Liver, urine tests, blood tests, my BP is 119/79 and pulse of 70bpm.

Currently I am battling a few symptoms even 5 and a half months after that panic attack. I still have some insomnia which I awaken about 2-3x a night down from 6-7x a night which was happening right after the attack for months. I bought a new mattress even to combat this. I also still get a tingling in the middle of my chest that feels like a ball of energy is building under my sternum. I battle constant bouts of feeling lightheaded/dizzy all day long everyday. When I am seated it is not too bad, but when I stand, I feel lightheaded. Also I have been getting panicked and feeling short of breath any time I encounter warm air or air that is standing. If I enter a room or go outside when it is warm, I feel like I cannot breathe and start to panic. I blast the AC in my car and when I first get into the car because I feel as though I am gonna suffocate. I still get various chest pains, but the lightheadedness, tingling in the chest and the feeling of suffocation are really ruining my life right now and I do not know how to make it end or improve it.

First, do my symptoms sound like anxiety to you guys? My doctor wants me to go on Lexapro, but I am still not sold that this is anxiety, or I damaged myself with that unknown research chemical. I feel as though I have permanently damaged my brain and that I ruined my entire life. My wife and I were about to begin a family, now I am scared that if I do, that I might not live long enough to raise my child properly. Any help and advice would be great. I am new to all of this and I dont really know what is going on with me. I have improved over the course of the 5 months, but it has been an extremely slow process. I have no craving to go back to smoking at all, but sometimes am curious to see if possibly this is attributable to quitting cigs as well and to go back to see if I improve. Thanks again and please send some help my way.

P.S. After researching the chemical that was supposedly on the blends I was ingesting, I have learned that it can give people a panic disorder but I havent read of people having it last so long. The chemical was JWH-018 or one of its relatives as I am not sure what was on it since it wasnt listed on the package itself. It produced a similar effect to that as marijuana.

Krisann79
06-11-2011, 12:51 PM
Well I'm new to this too but what I can say is if nothing else you're definitely anxious about what's going on right now. So maybe start off by treating that and see what else comes out in the wash.
For example: In my case I actually really do have Graves Disease (thyroid problems). Well I've been sick for 45ish days now. Several of the hyperthyroid symptoms that I was plagued with daily actually turned out to be anxiety from the hyperthroid! Basically I was attributing some anxiety symtoms to that but it was really good ol fashioned anxiety brought on by health concerns among other things going on lately.
I'm only 4 days in on my medicine and most of my symptoms have reduced SIGNIFICANTLY! So I'd say give it a shot it can't hurt.

forwells
06-11-2011, 03:58 PM
Howdy

I would say it is anxiety but anxiety is not as clear cut as is made out .

You sound like you are much like me where the anxiety is coming from the way you feel . The symptoms. If there was no symptoms then you would have nothing to be anxious about .

I believe that this chemical and the after effects have reset the way your body handles stresses in life and that you need to let it settle back down . You say you feel better and thats good . I will tell you honestly that it is a long trip and will effect you for sometime until you recovery but that you will .

I would like to say that it may feel like this
permanently damaged my brain and that I ruined my entire life. but it is not the case .

Do some research on adrenal fatigue as i think it might be some of what you have .

You have to control all the thoughts that you have about what it may be and work on recovery . Its hard i know but you have gotten better so stop focusing on what may have caused it and focus on looking after yourself and getting better

cheers kev

Itz Omi
06-11-2011, 10:26 PM
I wish I had a nickel for every time someone was looking for a "high" and ended up getting more than they bargained for - panic attacks that lasted for months!!

I agree with Forwells about the adrenal fatigue. Keep away from the cigarettes and look for other ways to calm your nerves. Good luck!

birdman1967
06-11-2011, 11:00 PM
Hi everyone and thank you for your responses. It is so reassuring to hear that everyone believes I will be ok. I have never dealt with any issue in my life for as long as this. I am quite aware this is of my own doing and I understand that I made a stupid choice. I should of not done anything at all, it just isnt worth it since you live only one. I honestly did think it was all natural plants that couldnt be harmful since it was legal, but that is no excuse either. Thanks to everyone once again, I will continue to battle through this and hopefully I will find the light at the end of the tunnel. I wish each and every one of you the best, thanks.

Itz Omi
06-11-2011, 11:40 PM
You are going to be fine. It just takes time, and accepting that will be half the battle. :)

forwells
06-11-2011, 11:44 PM
I agree accepting is good but also no dwelling on what you should have or should not have done . You did it and now you cant change it but you can work on getting better which it sounds like you are slowly

cheers