tarabond
05-29-2011, 02:22 PM
Hi, I'm so glad I found this forum.
I don't really know how to begin, but I've had anxiety for about two years now, since my girlfriend left me (It all started to go wrong). I've had my ups and downs but in general I feel very nervous, sometimes shaky, unconfident and unsure of myself. My head is constantly(!) running thoughts, often unrealistic, dreamy 'what if' thoughts.. I also fear that I am wasting my youth on these thoughts and unsureness.. I often question myself 'who am I?' .. I mean, deep inside I know, and I do remember my life with no worries.. But now-a-days I'm so unsure, also thinking that I now going crazy, for real. I find myself often thinking thoughts I don't want to think of but "must do it", and that makes me soo mentally tired. The last weeks I have been thinking "oh, what if I got schizophrenia?", and almost refused myself to try to get better, because "hey, i got schizophrenia, so I will be mentally ill forever.." I kind of think "ofcourse I dont have schizo...", but another part of me do think I have..so.. I was really wondering, do any of you think I may have schizophrenia? Or is this thoughts etc normal with the anxiety? Must also mention I've had several periods with depression, and often find myself in a "not happy, not sad, I just don't care" mood... Some answers would be so great.
Take care folks.
I don't really know how to begin, but I've had anxiety for about two years now, since my girlfriend left me (It all started to go wrong). I've had my ups and downs but in general I feel very nervous, sometimes shaky, unconfident and unsure of myself. My head is constantly(!) running thoughts, often unrealistic, dreamy 'what if' thoughts.. I also fear that I am wasting my youth on these thoughts and unsureness.. I often question myself 'who am I?' .. I mean, deep inside I know, and I do remember my life with no worries.. But now-a-days I'm so unsure, also thinking that I now going crazy, for real. I find myself often thinking thoughts I don't want to think of but "must do it", and that makes me soo mentally tired. The last weeks I have been thinking "oh, what if I got schizophrenia?", and almost refused myself to try to get better, because "hey, i got schizophrenia, so I will be mentally ill forever.." I kind of think "ofcourse I dont have schizo...", but another part of me do think I have..so.. I was really wondering, do any of you think I may have schizophrenia? Or is this thoughts etc normal with the anxiety? Must also mention I've had several periods with depression, and often find myself in a "not happy, not sad, I just don't care" mood... Some answers would be so great.
Take care folks.