Gaspy
05-23-2011, 04:02 AM
Hi everyone!
I registrated to this forum because i thought it might be a good idea to share my feelings with others and try to give advice to others with similar problems..
Sorry if it will be a bit long.
So i think I was always an anxious person in my whole life..I always payed too much attention on what others think of me..Like if someone didnt talk to me in school I immediately thought that he must dont like me,and stuff like that..I also felt depressed from time to time..but these things didnt last too long i got over it a few days usually..
I think my anxiety has been triggered at the end of school,before my school leaving exam.We have a small holiday accomodation,and I wanted to invite a few friends and they wanted to come aswell...I couldnt decide who to invite and I knew that I cant invite everyone..before my school leaving exams this knocked me out completely I couldnt sleep I couldnt study at all, I went mental..My parents saw this as well and took me to the psychiatrist who knew me already and gave me seroxat and clomezopan(just a little dosage every day)..Im on these two medications since then...After the exams I slowly got better and in a month i was completely well. Then I came to England to learn english and my anxiety completely disappeared. For a year..After then I started to get anxious about little things again(like a didnt give back 2 pounds to someone,I told something bad of someone) and I reacted with the same mechanism of anxiety what I did back then,like whats gonna happen if, what if, what others gonna think about me etc..
but these anxiety patterns didnt take longer than a few weeks..but last year, my friends wanted to go for holiday with me again and I reacted with the same anxiety as I did back then at the start.that took quiet long finally I told my hungarian friends that I have anxiety about the holiday and sorry but Im not gonna go with them anymore..This killed my anxiety completely..A few months ago in my school I cancelled a message on the computer and it made me feel that I damaged my mate's work on the computer because it was his name on the screen when I cancelled...This keeps my anxious since then..I asked him 3 times about his work he said its fine, I asked the technician in the school he said I couldnt have caused any damage..But my brain just dont accept it and just reacts with the anxious patterns from my past I think...And its a bit too much now u know...I dont wanna spend the rest of my life like that..I need a way out.I dont think that medication is the long term solution for this and I dont wanna be on tablets for the rest of my life..I have seen a counsellor but it didnt help too much.I have tried the Linden method but its very hard sometimes..
Any suggestions what I could do?Sorry for my bad english I hope u understand what i mean.And thanks for reading
I registrated to this forum because i thought it might be a good idea to share my feelings with others and try to give advice to others with similar problems..
Sorry if it will be a bit long.
So i think I was always an anxious person in my whole life..I always payed too much attention on what others think of me..Like if someone didnt talk to me in school I immediately thought that he must dont like me,and stuff like that..I also felt depressed from time to time..but these things didnt last too long i got over it a few days usually..
I think my anxiety has been triggered at the end of school,before my school leaving exam.We have a small holiday accomodation,and I wanted to invite a few friends and they wanted to come aswell...I couldnt decide who to invite and I knew that I cant invite everyone..before my school leaving exams this knocked me out completely I couldnt sleep I couldnt study at all, I went mental..My parents saw this as well and took me to the psychiatrist who knew me already and gave me seroxat and clomezopan(just a little dosage every day)..Im on these two medications since then...After the exams I slowly got better and in a month i was completely well. Then I came to England to learn english and my anxiety completely disappeared. For a year..After then I started to get anxious about little things again(like a didnt give back 2 pounds to someone,I told something bad of someone) and I reacted with the same mechanism of anxiety what I did back then,like whats gonna happen if, what if, what others gonna think about me etc..
but these anxiety patterns didnt take longer than a few weeks..but last year, my friends wanted to go for holiday with me again and I reacted with the same anxiety as I did back then at the start.that took quiet long finally I told my hungarian friends that I have anxiety about the holiday and sorry but Im not gonna go with them anymore..This killed my anxiety completely..A few months ago in my school I cancelled a message on the computer and it made me feel that I damaged my mate's work on the computer because it was his name on the screen when I cancelled...This keeps my anxious since then..I asked him 3 times about his work he said its fine, I asked the technician in the school he said I couldnt have caused any damage..But my brain just dont accept it and just reacts with the anxious patterns from my past I think...And its a bit too much now u know...I dont wanna spend the rest of my life like that..I need a way out.I dont think that medication is the long term solution for this and I dont wanna be on tablets for the rest of my life..I have seen a counsellor but it didnt help too much.I have tried the Linden method but its very hard sometimes..
Any suggestions what I could do?Sorry for my bad english I hope u understand what i mean.And thanks for reading