soquilichi
05-18-2011, 01:11 AM
Hi
I am 28 years old
I am from Australia and married to a wonderful man and I have 2 children and many pets.
I developed my first anxiety panic attack at the age of 16. I was at a concert and my current older and non the wiser partner was giving me speed and much alcohol for the past 2 days. I was trying to fit in with all the other "cool" teens and then next he offered me an "E" tablet. I questioned whether this would affect me and he assured me it wuld be nothing but fun. I felt strange and happy and carefree for about 10 minutes then panic set in. I panicked that bad I was put in an ambulance and swore I was dying.
After this event I went home and continued back at school normally. I kept drinking in large amounts on the weekends and school nights.
One afternoon I had my first real and sober panic attack. I was hungover and taking a bus home from school and all of a sudden wanted to run. I went into a toilet and put water on my face and was trying to get a hold of myself..I had no idea what was happening and called an ambulance. They gave me needles etc and I stayed in the doctors until I was ok.
I thought this was the last of it...
It most certainly wasnt!!
The next few days I felt odd. I could not sleep and awoke after tossing and turning with this horrible taste always in my mouth. Eventually I could not do anything. I could not stomach food, could not sleep, my mind would not stop, I cried and reached out for anyone that stop this madness. I was put on paxtine and after a few weeks I felt alot better. I was also living off valium. Anything and everything made me panic. I stopped driving, walking or going out at all!
I managed to get through years with no panic. I stayed on paxtine and still drunk and was fine from 16 right up to the age of 21.
I even weaned myself of the tablets during my second pregnancy and was so proud.
When my second child was born I went out for a night with the girls and my drink got spiked.
Guess what was back in my life in full force?
Panic,anxiety, no sleep, a massive weight loss, crazy thoughts, shaking in my bed, just a complete mess
So I was put back on tablets again!
I was fine until 2006 and then another breakdown!
This has been on and off and I managed to get back to 1/2 a tablet of paxtine and this new years day awoke with another nervous breakdown, one that would not go unless I took a full tablet
Will I ever survive without paxtine?
Thats my ????
I am 28 years old
I am from Australia and married to a wonderful man and I have 2 children and many pets.
I developed my first anxiety panic attack at the age of 16. I was at a concert and my current older and non the wiser partner was giving me speed and much alcohol for the past 2 days. I was trying to fit in with all the other "cool" teens and then next he offered me an "E" tablet. I questioned whether this would affect me and he assured me it wuld be nothing but fun. I felt strange and happy and carefree for about 10 minutes then panic set in. I panicked that bad I was put in an ambulance and swore I was dying.
After this event I went home and continued back at school normally. I kept drinking in large amounts on the weekends and school nights.
One afternoon I had my first real and sober panic attack. I was hungover and taking a bus home from school and all of a sudden wanted to run. I went into a toilet and put water on my face and was trying to get a hold of myself..I had no idea what was happening and called an ambulance. They gave me needles etc and I stayed in the doctors until I was ok.
I thought this was the last of it...
It most certainly wasnt!!
The next few days I felt odd. I could not sleep and awoke after tossing and turning with this horrible taste always in my mouth. Eventually I could not do anything. I could not stomach food, could not sleep, my mind would not stop, I cried and reached out for anyone that stop this madness. I was put on paxtine and after a few weeks I felt alot better. I was also living off valium. Anything and everything made me panic. I stopped driving, walking or going out at all!
I managed to get through years with no panic. I stayed on paxtine and still drunk and was fine from 16 right up to the age of 21.
I even weaned myself of the tablets during my second pregnancy and was so proud.
When my second child was born I went out for a night with the girls and my drink got spiked.
Guess what was back in my life in full force?
Panic,anxiety, no sleep, a massive weight loss, crazy thoughts, shaking in my bed, just a complete mess
So I was put back on tablets again!
I was fine until 2006 and then another breakdown!
This has been on and off and I managed to get back to 1/2 a tablet of paxtine and this new years day awoke with another nervous breakdown, one that would not go unless I took a full tablet
Will I ever survive without paxtine?
Thats my ????