britmelon27
05-17-2011, 08:59 AM
I am 18 years old and have a phobia of sickness. I have not been sick in over 6 years, but in the last few years especially it has become much more intense. I cannot even bring myself to say the word and usually replace it will "physically ill".
If someone coughs around me, I either walk away quickly or if i cannot leave i cover my ears and start counting. I fear that they will be ill if they do not stop coughing. I do not ever want to have children as if they get ill i do not know what i would do? Furthermore, before i could even start of having children i would have to have a partner, this even scares me. I cannot put myself close to anyone (i have had two relationships which i ended as soon as they came near me basically - these did not last long). I feel that if they are ill I will then catch it if they kiss me or come too close to me. I HATE THIS!
Also, I am going to university later this year, but I only have a 20% of getting an ensuite, otherwise I will have to share a bathroom with lots of other students. This scares me because lots of students go out drinking (another thing is that i do not drink - will never get drunk as it can lead to being ill) and they might spend the night/next day throwing up which is not good if i need in the bathroom. I have had nightmares about this and really scared about going, but also i have a young sister (4 years old) and if she is ill I go stay with my friend at night if at all possible.
I do not know what to do anymore...
If someone coughs around me, I either walk away quickly or if i cannot leave i cover my ears and start counting. I fear that they will be ill if they do not stop coughing. I do not ever want to have children as if they get ill i do not know what i would do? Furthermore, before i could even start of having children i would have to have a partner, this even scares me. I cannot put myself close to anyone (i have had two relationships which i ended as soon as they came near me basically - these did not last long). I feel that if they are ill I will then catch it if they kiss me or come too close to me. I HATE THIS!
Also, I am going to university later this year, but I only have a 20% of getting an ensuite, otherwise I will have to share a bathroom with lots of other students. This scares me because lots of students go out drinking (another thing is that i do not drink - will never get drunk as it can lead to being ill) and they might spend the night/next day throwing up which is not good if i need in the bathroom. I have had nightmares about this and really scared about going, but also i have a young sister (4 years old) and if she is ill I go stay with my friend at night if at all possible.
I do not know what to do anymore...