Hi

[Perfectlyimperfect1]

I'm new here so i thought i'd say hi.

I've been struggling with Anxiety for a few years now..also Depression.
It's gotten to the point where i talk about what i'm going through or what it's like i end up in tears.

I fee like i'm afraid to have a 'normal life' to go out, meet new people, to do something .. anything with my life. Everytime i try to go out or meet someone just thinking about it makes me nervous and panic. My hands get sweaty, then the rest of me (which makes it unconfortable to go anywhere) i shake, i feel like i can't breathe... and then it doesn't end up happening that leads to depression.

Lately i guess i've been making it worse for myself.. I haven't gone anywhere or spoken/seen any of my friends lately I know that.. and staying in bed doesn't help i don't see any point in talking to anyone when i've got nothing good to say.
Sometimes i think theres no point getting up because everyday is the same...
I feel like my life is like this wheel that goes around and keeps repeating itself..
It's not that i don't want to change it's that i'm afraid too.

Well..

Thanks for reading.

[shabbyboo]

Hello

I'd just like to 'hi' and to say that you sound very similar to me! I've always been quite shy and would go as far as saying I dread social occasions or meeting new people - I find it very stressful and uncomfortable. I don't want to be antisocial but find myself making excuses not to go to places so I don't have to deal with 'other people'. Then I start feeling low in mood then because I don't make friends or keep the ones I've made! It's a vicious cycle. It's quite a lonely place to be! This social anxiety can effect all areas of my life, it has definitely held me back in terms of career progression and continuing hobbies/persuing other interests.
I've just got a good book online - 'How to overcome social anxiety and shyness' - it seems quite good so far, you should check it out.

Shabby x

[Perfectlyimperfect1]

Thanks for the reply. yep! I find myself making excuses too.. mainly 'no i don't want too' or 'I can't'..
Sigh. It gets very lonely.. and upseting and just the thought of going back to school terrifys me...
Thanks for recommeding the book! Will check it out. :)

[just1]

Hey PerfectlyImperfect1,

The person was quite right about the excuses thing and I don't blame you because I know what it feels like to be in your position. But one thing you can try to get better is to simply look at something you want to do. For example, do you have anything to look forward to? Because if you don't have anything to look forward to, then things will start to get worse and worse.

Try doing something you enjoy. For me it's anything that involves Disneyland or DisneyWorld. Every time I feel down, I watch the fireworks at DisneyWorld on YouTube. It really helps!

Just Follow Your Bliss

Hope I Helped...:)

[Perfectlyimperfect1]

Yeah, and i totally agree but most of the time it's just the depression that i don't wanna do anything or go anywhere. Unless the Anxeitys getting to me. I have nothing to look forward too. I'm 22 and still live with my dad and i'm home alone everday til when my dad gets off work. I've lived outtta home before and i loved it and was never this scared of anything....but because i don't work or study it's hard for me to find a place where i want to be and to get the help i need. I have a disabilly... CP it's very mild but when you've been told you can't do things pretty much all your life ... you kinda just end up giving up eventually. I'm not stupid and i know what im capable of. But that really gets to me. Sorrry if this doesnt make any sense i'm kinda drunk at the moment.

Thanks for the advice though i really apprecatie it.

[Perfectlyimperfect1]

Ps: i also live outta town which does not help at all.