shabbyboo
04-13-2011, 12:53 PM
Hi everyone, just thought I'd say hello and share my experience. I'm currently just getting over the worst bout of anxiety I've had in years.
I had my first period of anxiety a few months after my Dad died, this was a little over 8 years ago when I was 26. I didn't think it was anxiety at the time, I genuinely thought I had a brain tumour/MS. The syptoms of dizziness and trembling lead to a greater fear of death and I hated being alone, something which had never bothered me in the slightest before. I had to stay with my mum when my husband worked away! This lasted for about a 6-8 months. I found day to day activities such a struggle. I realise the death of my father had triggered this.
I was then pretty much OK after that until 4 years later. Pretty much the day after my first baby was born I found myself with same anxiety symptoms but this time they were much worse. I had obsessional irrational thoughts and was diagnosed with PND 4 weeks after her birth. I took Citalopram for 12 months. Again, this lasted about 6 months and I've pretty much been fine again - that was until 3 months ago.
I've been quite stressed at work. The staffing levels are poor and I can't do my job properly. I almost never have the opportunity for a break during my work day, then it just continues when I get home. I'm a bit of a perfectionist and quite shy. I give 100% all the time at work and at home. I'm very sensitive and easily upset by the news etc but this has become worse over the last few months. I don't think this type of personality helps when it comes to managing anxiety. I'm finding full time work and raising a family quite a struggle at times. My husband has been in and out of work due to the current economic climate which is quite stressful,too.
The anxiety and obsessional thoughts started about 12 weeks ago. I managed it myself at first and it seemed to go after a month or so but BOOM about 2 weeks ago I woke up in the middle of the night shaking, knots in stomach, racing heart, cold sweats and feeling like I was going crazy. Out of the blue, I convinced myself that I'd made mistakes at work years ago and had all these 'what if thoughts'. I'm absolutely obsessed and I'm picking apart everything I've ever done in my professional career. I'm torturing myself. My GP has given me Diazepam and Escitalopram and has referred me for councelling. I'm just so scared as it came on so strong and out of the blue. I just can't stop these racing scary thoughts - it really is a living hell. I'm signed off work for 2 weeks so far.
Thanks for reading, it helps to write down my thoughts!
I had my first period of anxiety a few months after my Dad died, this was a little over 8 years ago when I was 26. I didn't think it was anxiety at the time, I genuinely thought I had a brain tumour/MS. The syptoms of dizziness and trembling lead to a greater fear of death and I hated being alone, something which had never bothered me in the slightest before. I had to stay with my mum when my husband worked away! This lasted for about a 6-8 months. I found day to day activities such a struggle. I realise the death of my father had triggered this.
I was then pretty much OK after that until 4 years later. Pretty much the day after my first baby was born I found myself with same anxiety symptoms but this time they were much worse. I had obsessional irrational thoughts and was diagnosed with PND 4 weeks after her birth. I took Citalopram for 12 months. Again, this lasted about 6 months and I've pretty much been fine again - that was until 3 months ago.
I've been quite stressed at work. The staffing levels are poor and I can't do my job properly. I almost never have the opportunity for a break during my work day, then it just continues when I get home. I'm a bit of a perfectionist and quite shy. I give 100% all the time at work and at home. I'm very sensitive and easily upset by the news etc but this has become worse over the last few months. I don't think this type of personality helps when it comes to managing anxiety. I'm finding full time work and raising a family quite a struggle at times. My husband has been in and out of work due to the current economic climate which is quite stressful,too.
The anxiety and obsessional thoughts started about 12 weeks ago. I managed it myself at first and it seemed to go after a month or so but BOOM about 2 weeks ago I woke up in the middle of the night shaking, knots in stomach, racing heart, cold sweats and feeling like I was going crazy. Out of the blue, I convinced myself that I'd made mistakes at work years ago and had all these 'what if thoughts'. I'm absolutely obsessed and I'm picking apart everything I've ever done in my professional career. I'm torturing myself. My GP has given me Diazepam and Escitalopram and has referred me for councelling. I'm just so scared as it came on so strong and out of the blue. I just can't stop these racing scary thoughts - it really is a living hell. I'm signed off work for 2 weeks so far.
Thanks for reading, it helps to write down my thoughts!