tottenhamhotspur
03-30-2011, 06:39 PM
Hey All.
I hope that I can find some help and support here, and perhaps give some to others.
My name is Brad and I am 25 years old. I have some symptoms that seem typical of anxiety and stress disorders as well as OCD but I have never been formally diagnosed.
I often feel uneasy and that I need to 'move' and do the 'next task' but the problem is that there is nothing else to do. I find it hard to relax and not worry about things like death, loss and loneliness almost all the time.
I also have obsessive tendencies that tie in, and for the last almost 4 years I think almost 24/7 about the same event, one of the things I regret and feel guilty about. I often let guilt and worry get the best of me and get me worked into a bit of a frenzy. Perhaps you have some advice on my specific situation
I have posted over 500 times on Yahoo Answers about the even that spurs on my anxiety most of the time, I'll post what I normally post below should anyone care to read and give me some advice or their viewpoint if they wish.
Also, I'll be going to counselling hopefully within the next month to try to get some help.
About 4 year ago, I went to a bar. I was 21 at the time, and pretty inexperienced when it came to any sort of physical interaction. I felt as though I needed to get out and see what I was 'missing'.
I was sitting outside of a local bar on a patio, and, with the bad judgement of alcohol and foolishness, french kissed a woman- she didn't kiss me or kiss me back, and a few moment later, for only a moment, put my hand down her pant and touched her butt (we were both sitting down and I don't think I got all that far). It all happened pretty quickly, and akwardly, as I have always been akward around women physically.
Anyhow, I have felt GUTTED about it, and obsessive about it for the last 4 years. I've never done anything like it before or after, and I didn't mean to cause any harm or offense by it, I just got carried away. She did not protest, hit me, run away, etc. or I surely would have stopped. I'd imagine she was a least surprised by it. I'm afraid I may have embarrassed or insulted her and should have been arrested or something. I am not a bad person, but made a mistake.
Any advice for me to stop obsessing and forgive myself?
Unfortunately I have no way to find her to ask her how she's doing, and more importantly, to apologize, explain myself and ask for forgiveness
I find day to day life difficult with my guilt, and I have struggled with other OCD issues
I hope that I can find some help and support here, and perhaps give some to others.
My name is Brad and I am 25 years old. I have some symptoms that seem typical of anxiety and stress disorders as well as OCD but I have never been formally diagnosed.
I often feel uneasy and that I need to 'move' and do the 'next task' but the problem is that there is nothing else to do. I find it hard to relax and not worry about things like death, loss and loneliness almost all the time.
I also have obsessive tendencies that tie in, and for the last almost 4 years I think almost 24/7 about the same event, one of the things I regret and feel guilty about. I often let guilt and worry get the best of me and get me worked into a bit of a frenzy. Perhaps you have some advice on my specific situation
I have posted over 500 times on Yahoo Answers about the even that spurs on my anxiety most of the time, I'll post what I normally post below should anyone care to read and give me some advice or their viewpoint if they wish.
Also, I'll be going to counselling hopefully within the next month to try to get some help.
About 4 year ago, I went to a bar. I was 21 at the time, and pretty inexperienced when it came to any sort of physical interaction. I felt as though I needed to get out and see what I was 'missing'.
I was sitting outside of a local bar on a patio, and, with the bad judgement of alcohol and foolishness, french kissed a woman- she didn't kiss me or kiss me back, and a few moment later, for only a moment, put my hand down her pant and touched her butt (we were both sitting down and I don't think I got all that far). It all happened pretty quickly, and akwardly, as I have always been akward around women physically.
Anyhow, I have felt GUTTED about it, and obsessive about it for the last 4 years. I've never done anything like it before or after, and I didn't mean to cause any harm or offense by it, I just got carried away. She did not protest, hit me, run away, etc. or I surely would have stopped. I'd imagine she was a least surprised by it. I'm afraid I may have embarrassed or insulted her and should have been arrested or something. I am not a bad person, but made a mistake.
Any advice for me to stop obsessing and forgive myself?
Unfortunately I have no way to find her to ask her how she's doing, and more importantly, to apologize, explain myself and ask for forgiveness
I find day to day life difficult with my guilt, and I have struggled with other OCD issues