Hi again! :-(

[candystarrstarr]

Hi everyone,

i'm back on here after 2 years, my anxiety is back with avengence and I don't have the slightest idea why?????? I'm so stressed right now finding the days feeling hard to get through, can no longer share a bed with my husband because I can not beare to be disturbed and it just makes him feel really guilty if I have a crap night! Last night I took 2mg diazipam and this was a 1st I actually woke up at half 1 in an extreamly high state of panic!!? I can't see no light at the end of the tunnel right now I feel I have tried everything and this is never going to go away!? I really need some possitivity and understading and someone to tell me everything is gonna be ok! I feel so sad and sorry for myself right now, I'm only 27 but have had this my whole life and it feels like it always comes back worse! I'm still terrified i'm going to get so highly panicked that I'm going to have a stroke or heartattack EVEN though I know it's highly unlikly that small part of me won't let it go!? Why am unlike this I can't beare it I really am suffering at this moment in time, I work full time and spend most days acting 'normal' to all my work friends bit really I want to scream out and tell everyone I can't cope! It's not work that causes my extream anxiety and tension I love my job!?
The fact it I haven't a clue what causes it? I'm scared of everything lol but I also think I'm quite brave because I will try and face my fears alot as I don't want to hold myself back and miss out on life. I'm sorry for the long rant! :-( I just am so fed up with anxiety holding me back in life and I feel also holding my wonderful husband back too :-(

Thanx in advance for people who tale the time to read this, any feedback or anyone feeling the same? Please write on here x

Ps I feel like the tension is so bad I could explode!

[tottenhamhotspur]

Hey!
I have some issues myself -and hopefully we can all help and support one another here.
Have you considered or went to therapy or a doctor or anything?
It might be a good idea to get in even just to have a chat. I am going to go back to therapy to try to work on my problems sooner hopefully rather than later.
You sound like a pretty caring and loving person- and I know you want the best for you and your family!

I don't know what causes anxiety either. I don't know if I will ever figure it out or even realize how to handle it- but I really, really want to try.
I'll be sure to share anything I find helpful with you- and my message box is always open to EVERYONE!!!

[candystarrstarr]

Hi!

Thank u do much for your reply it means so much :-)! I'm sorry to hear how u are also feeling, I'm having really bad night tonight :-( it's nearly 4am and I have woken it a real high state of bad tension!! It's weird because I don't really have the bad panic attacks I used to have instead I just feel like my whole body is tense, almost like I'm being sat on lol I know that sounds weird or I kind of feel like a lead weight?! I just need a release but don't know how? I'm seeing my doctor Monday and a councilor also, really don't want to go down the road of antidepressants but I don't feel like I have an option any more :-(!

What do u find works best for u?

Candy x