LocoLobo
03-08-2011, 09:10 PM
I am a long time sufferer of GAD. I had my first memorable panic attack after smoking marijuana (the one blessing from that is I will never touch an illegal drug again). Shortly after that I had them ALL the time. I think my contributing factor was my ex-wife, she was verbally abusive. After we divorced they almost quit. I went without having any major attacks for years. Of course I still had the general anxiety and even worse social anxiety, but the panic attacks are what really bothered me. Recently, though, I started having attacks in my sleep. I remembered most of them, but some my wife had to tell me about. Now I am having them almost nightly when I am awake. I am convinced I have a brain tumor because the right side of my head keeps hurting and my right arm and now my eyes are really bloodshot. I know and most here know there is more than likely nothing wrong with me, but I can't convince myself of that and I am freaking out. I am shaking as I type this.
I am pretty sure why the attacks and anxiety has worsened. I am trying to get custody of my 2 kids from the ex that caused most of my attacks and she is being very vindictive towards me.
I am not on any medication at the moment, but I have been considering asking about Cymbalta. I don't like any type of drugs due to what caused my first one, but I have to do something because I am going crazy here.
Anyway sorry about the long most paragraph-less wall of text, but I need someone to talk to.
Also, is there any type of help line that anyone is aware of? It helps me to actually talk to a real person, but my wife just doesn't understand what I am going through.
I am pretty sure why the attacks and anxiety has worsened. I am trying to get custody of my 2 kids from the ex that caused most of my attacks and she is being very vindictive towards me.
I am not on any medication at the moment, but I have been considering asking about Cymbalta. I don't like any type of drugs due to what caused my first one, but I have to do something because I am going crazy here.
Anyway sorry about the long most paragraph-less wall of text, but I need someone to talk to.
Also, is there any type of help line that anyone is aware of? It helps me to actually talk to a real person, but my wife just doesn't understand what I am going through.