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[Blind1416]

Hi there. Just thought I'd introduce myself. I'm a teenage female with multiple anxiety disorders. Generalized Anxiety, Social Anxiety, Panic Disorder and a few others. Of course, the deprssion.... I also have derealization/depersonalization which isn't necessarily an anxiety disorder, but I feel it is a relatively important detail. If you don't know what that is there's a lot of information around the web. To put it VERY briefly it's a constant inability to identify with reality. Anyhow, I've had anxiety for as long as I can remember. It started out mild/moderate. I'd have somebody go through the checkout for me because I didn't want to talk to the cashier, I wouldn't answer the household telephone because I didn't want to answer it "wrong" or have someone mistake me for somebody else, that kind of thing. Then I sort of became terrified of more and more things as time went on. I also went through a bout of marijuana use (I hope that's okay to say here) which pretty much sent me over the edge and into a place I haven't been able to recover from. Dumb, I know, but I'm just being honest. I'd had a use of it in the past but stopped because of what it did to me on a few rare occasions. Last spring I picked the habit back up and was fine, but panic attacks slowly crept up on me once or twice, then more frequently, and so I stopped. Once I had completely sobered, about a month later or so I was hit with derealization and that put me into a panic attack that lasted for days. More panic attacks that last hours/days ensued until I became hospitalized. I was released early due to a death in the family. I was fine for a month or so on medication, but now I'm back to the beginning, stuck in a rut and always afraid. I don't do anything. What you see is it; internet. Search and study my disorders. Go to school. Come home. Go to bed late, wake up early, do it again.
So, thanks for reading; I know it was kind of long. Now you know a bit about me :) I look forward to talking with all of the members here and sharing what I know with others and learning from others as well. Best of luck to everyone in their anxious life journeys <3

[Jayceon]

Hello there , i have just joined the site recently aswell so i thought i would say hello ! At the moment i have what people seem to discribe as health anxiety, in short every twinge or pain i get and i think i am dieing. In my head i have had heart problems, cancer to strokes and everything else under the sun. In my teens i suffered from depression aswell and i can relate to some of the things you described in your story. For the last few months i have been thinking i have a lot of health issues and been tested in hospital and told i am fine, the only piece of advise i can give you is try not look up to much on the internet, i found it incresed my anxiety to the stage i was in constant panic mode! I am 25 now i suffered from depression when i was 17-19 ( probly the worse 2 years of my life) but as i started to deal with the depression all the symptons of the anxiety slowly but surely disappeared ! Its different for everyone but thats how it happened for me ! So its food for thought, all the best mate and if you would like to chat and share experiences then get in touch ! Take care

[sheridan41]

Hi Blind1416.

Sorry your feeling so bad, firstly stop being so hard on yourself! You have anxiety, it's not your fault or because of something you did in the past. If you have searched on the internet you will have read about CBT therapies and this is the way to go.

Hope you feel better soon.