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01-19-2011, 09:58 PM
I am a 20 year old college student. I have had anxiety and the random panic attacks in the past that are very scary. Recently I have had very consistent ones but this time its over certain things that make no sense at all. I will tell my short story about what has been hurting my life recently and hopefully I can gain some positive feedback or if anyone can relate please help.
About a month ago when I started up my winter break I had been playing video games extensively and drinking coffee. I went to go to bed around 4am and sat in bed... my eye hurt for a second and then I started to think about the attachments we have behind our eyeballs. It began to panic me and I broke out into a panic attack. Just thinking about how we have those inside us and our body is made up of stuff like that which have such a huge impact on us was overwhelming to think about and even cheeped me out. I made it through the night then was scarred because it was so weird I would have a panic attack over such a thing that it began to trigger more of the same eye panic attacks. I was able to talk myself out of stuff like that but then the other day I started thinking about our brains. Like, whoa... I have a gross squishy thing in my head that possesses all of these crazy abilities.. and it triggered a panic attack... Just thinking about my brain and that the squishy thing inside my is actually there, panics me. Its unreal, it like I never thought about it that closely before.
I took a biology course this term and learned about the human heart and it hit me that that gross organ is inside of me, and i stopped my thought immediately. I wonder if actually learning about biological features freaked me out subconsciously and it popped up after the term was over. I mean... we say we have a brain, but dang when we think about how crazy it is, it is overwhelming.
Anyways, I feel so crazy and I even went to see a therapist for the first time because I was so freaked out about my thoughts and actions lately. I have never taken medications nor do I want to. They basically told me I have panic attacks and panic disorder. I have a second appointment coming up. It makes me feel better to be around my girlfriend or friends because I dont think about it as much or worry.
I just feel so weird that now all of a sudden I am freaking out that I have a brain and what not, and its overwhelming. When im not panicking about it, im panicking that ill panic about it again. And then I just think about how damn weird that is to panic over... I know it sounds all bad.
I may have just been not doing anything and worked myself into my own head over this whole thing. My semester starts back up tomorrow and I just started a great job today. Maybe i can get out of my own head about my body parts? I am not used to having these thoughts really, but I have been known to get inside my own head and psyc myself out of stuff. The other night I went to the club with my girlfriend and her friends. I had a great time, saw some friends I haven't seen in a while and didnt have a worry on my mind. But then after that, a day after , I got the panic again about my weird thoughts.
If anyone has positive feedback, or advice, I would love to hear it.
About a month ago when I started up my winter break I had been playing video games extensively and drinking coffee. I went to go to bed around 4am and sat in bed... my eye hurt for a second and then I started to think about the attachments we have behind our eyeballs. It began to panic me and I broke out into a panic attack. Just thinking about how we have those inside us and our body is made up of stuff like that which have such a huge impact on us was overwhelming to think about and even cheeped me out. I made it through the night then was scarred because it was so weird I would have a panic attack over such a thing that it began to trigger more of the same eye panic attacks. I was able to talk myself out of stuff like that but then the other day I started thinking about our brains. Like, whoa... I have a gross squishy thing in my head that possesses all of these crazy abilities.. and it triggered a panic attack... Just thinking about my brain and that the squishy thing inside my is actually there, panics me. Its unreal, it like I never thought about it that closely before.
I took a biology course this term and learned about the human heart and it hit me that that gross organ is inside of me, and i stopped my thought immediately. I wonder if actually learning about biological features freaked me out subconsciously and it popped up after the term was over. I mean... we say we have a brain, but dang when we think about how crazy it is, it is overwhelming.
Anyways, I feel so crazy and I even went to see a therapist for the first time because I was so freaked out about my thoughts and actions lately. I have never taken medications nor do I want to. They basically told me I have panic attacks and panic disorder. I have a second appointment coming up. It makes me feel better to be around my girlfriend or friends because I dont think about it as much or worry.
I just feel so weird that now all of a sudden I am freaking out that I have a brain and what not, and its overwhelming. When im not panicking about it, im panicking that ill panic about it again. And then I just think about how damn weird that is to panic over... I know it sounds all bad.
I may have just been not doing anything and worked myself into my own head over this whole thing. My semester starts back up tomorrow and I just started a great job today. Maybe i can get out of my own head about my body parts? I am not used to having these thoughts really, but I have been known to get inside my own head and psyc myself out of stuff. The other night I went to the club with my girlfriend and her friends. I had a great time, saw some friends I haven't seen in a while and didnt have a worry on my mind. But then after that, a day after , I got the panic again about my weird thoughts.
If anyone has positive feedback, or advice, I would love to hear it.