rainbowdust
11-08-2010, 02:50 AM
Hello all
I'm so grateful to have found a popular forum on a subject I need some help and support with.
I visited the GP last week after spending a lot of the other weekend down and crying...and trying to avoid crying in front of my bubbly, happy and lively 9 month old! I figured at first it may be something to do with post natal depression but that there was something else there. I thought this as I absolutely adore my little boy, have no problems looking after him and enjoy every moment of him. After speaking to my father he said he didn't think I had been happy for some time. I lost my mum in pretty tragic circumstances 9 years ago, 6 months later my brother, then uncle then my gran. I then met someone and got married even though something didn't feel right marrying him I still did?!! Having worked in the hospitals for some time I decided to have a change of career. I worked as an assistant pathologist got good grades etc but left half way through as I found it stressful. I then a year later decided to do nursing again got super grades but left a year before qualifying as I couldn't handle the stress and responsibility. I then split up with my husband and lived on my own, I felt so lonely. I then got together with a guy I had been friends with for sometime I felt pregnant then miscarried...moved in together now I have my beautiful baby.....
Point where I am at now is I am living in a part of the UK where I hardly know anyone apart from the new friends I have recently made. I can't and struggle to make decisions..I find it difficult to sleep as my mind is constantly ticking over...I am extremely irritable with my partner....and I feel so down. My GP gave me a questionnaire to fill in so I could be referred for counselling and I had a high score on the GAD-7 part of anxiety but not so much for the depression? I am off to try meditation this week to see if it helps before I resign to taking medication before my counselling appointment comes through.
Sorry it's such a long post, any support and advice greatly appreciated.
I'm so grateful to have found a popular forum on a subject I need some help and support with.
I visited the GP last week after spending a lot of the other weekend down and crying...and trying to avoid crying in front of my bubbly, happy and lively 9 month old! I figured at first it may be something to do with post natal depression but that there was something else there. I thought this as I absolutely adore my little boy, have no problems looking after him and enjoy every moment of him. After speaking to my father he said he didn't think I had been happy for some time. I lost my mum in pretty tragic circumstances 9 years ago, 6 months later my brother, then uncle then my gran. I then met someone and got married even though something didn't feel right marrying him I still did?!! Having worked in the hospitals for some time I decided to have a change of career. I worked as an assistant pathologist got good grades etc but left half way through as I found it stressful. I then a year later decided to do nursing again got super grades but left a year before qualifying as I couldn't handle the stress and responsibility. I then split up with my husband and lived on my own, I felt so lonely. I then got together with a guy I had been friends with for sometime I felt pregnant then miscarried...moved in together now I have my beautiful baby.....
Point where I am at now is I am living in a part of the UK where I hardly know anyone apart from the new friends I have recently made. I can't and struggle to make decisions..I find it difficult to sleep as my mind is constantly ticking over...I am extremely irritable with my partner....and I feel so down. My GP gave me a questionnaire to fill in so I could be referred for counselling and I had a high score on the GAD-7 part of anxiety but not so much for the depression? I am off to try meditation this week to see if it helps before I resign to taking medication before my counselling appointment comes through.
Sorry it's such a long post, any support and advice greatly appreciated.