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RoseFlower
11-01-2010, 11:16 PM
So I'm on here as Rose, I'm 34 and live in the Western Americas.

Lifetime history of depression with anxiety hidden below that until a lot of the depression was addressed. I still have both, but my anxiety doesn't magically turn into feeling sad anymore - like it used to (I'd trace back my thoughts and realize that an anxious thought was what REALLY triggered my sadness and crying).

The worst I got with depression is voluntary hospital admission, concerned for my safety; I was kept in a "lighter" kind of psych ward. It helped a lot.

The worst with anxiety has only been a few panic attacks and anxiety attacks, the 1st one over 12 hours and was my 1st mental-health related trip to the ER - the 1st of 7 in 14 months!

My most recent problems (2010) came on when my husband left me very abruptly, and in a seriously painful way, and we do not need to discuss him or I'll get angry. Let's just say I would not wish that guy on anyone. Because of where we married, the divorce is not yet final; I'm told to expect some money, which I feel -- without going into details -- I deserve.

Anyhow, it's been 8 months since that thing started and 5.5 months since I found out the worst parts -- those bits of news set me back a bit. I have not worked, I've lived off savings and a small bit of mercy money I get from him ea month, but I AM happy to say that on good days, I DO look forward to a MUCH better life without a d-b@g holding me back!!!

Right now I see a Psychiatrist (covered by my health plan, thank God) weekly and she's great, I take meds for anxiety, depression and to go to sleep (also covered and I am GRATEFUL). I see a PhD Psychologist/therapist every 2nd week and pay her cash, but as long as I can afford her it's worth it. She does Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, which is meant to be one of the most highly-regarded treatments for anxiety. Every psych and psych nurse I've met has essentially said so, and they all told me that CBT WITH a therapist, instead of on one's own, is better, and so far, for me, it is.

Cheers all, nice to meet you!

RoseFlower

Nice to meet you all.