Zuena
10-22-2010, 12:58 PM
I think I am depressed.
For years I have been feeling "down" alllll the time and I thought that it was due to so much happening in my life and I wondered if maybe I just didn't have the desire to live anymore. Not in a "end it all" way, I just really thought life has been too hard and it has robbed me of my happiness, and that I would have to drag myself through the rest of my years.
I don't get suicidal, and I do have my moments but I don't cry all the time or constantly feel miserable. I don't have the signs of deep depression like constant emotional turmoil or sleeping a lot. I just lack that "spark" that most people seem to have. I just can't be bothered with life, really.
My doctor prescribed an anti-depressant around 2 weeks ago and I really thought I don't need it, that it was the anxiety.. but thinking about it, I wonder if I shouldn't give it a try. My sister was on the same meds for a while (after she walked out of a 28 year marriage) and she said that one morning, about a month after she started taking the pills, she just woke up and felt like she could breathe again, that her head has came up from underneath the water.
I don't give anxiety any credit in my life anymore, so let's say when I USED to feel anxious all the time, I was soooo scared of taking even painkillers. I would go into a flat panic and think I have overdosed, even if I took only one asprin. Besides not wanting that anxiety to come back when I do start taking meds, I am also concerned about the side effects, such as addiction.
(Besides not wanting to take meds because I was afraid that I would die because I had overdosed, I was also afraid that it would make me sleepy to the point where I would do something stupid and lose control. Always the control issue, huh. )
Any advice on this? Is there anyone else out there with an issue about taking meds?
Any advice about either issue would be appreciated.
Z
For years I have been feeling "down" alllll the time and I thought that it was due to so much happening in my life and I wondered if maybe I just didn't have the desire to live anymore. Not in a "end it all" way, I just really thought life has been too hard and it has robbed me of my happiness, and that I would have to drag myself through the rest of my years.
I don't get suicidal, and I do have my moments but I don't cry all the time or constantly feel miserable. I don't have the signs of deep depression like constant emotional turmoil or sleeping a lot. I just lack that "spark" that most people seem to have. I just can't be bothered with life, really.
My doctor prescribed an anti-depressant around 2 weeks ago and I really thought I don't need it, that it was the anxiety.. but thinking about it, I wonder if I shouldn't give it a try. My sister was on the same meds for a while (after she walked out of a 28 year marriage) and she said that one morning, about a month after she started taking the pills, she just woke up and felt like she could breathe again, that her head has came up from underneath the water.
I don't give anxiety any credit in my life anymore, so let's say when I USED to feel anxious all the time, I was soooo scared of taking even painkillers. I would go into a flat panic and think I have overdosed, even if I took only one asprin. Besides not wanting that anxiety to come back when I do start taking meds, I am also concerned about the side effects, such as addiction.
(Besides not wanting to take meds because I was afraid that I would die because I had overdosed, I was also afraid that it would make me sleepy to the point where I would do something stupid and lose control. Always the control issue, huh. )
Any advice on this? Is there anyone else out there with an issue about taking meds?
Any advice about either issue would be appreciated.
Z