eraserhead
10-03-2010, 11:49 AM
Can anyone describe to me their experience of being self consciousness, and the perceiving of ones "self". I am talking both about the self-observation that takes place in private, and in public situations.
Do any of you actually envision yourself, or your facial expression, to the extent that your mind's eye is involved? That is, you are constantly or occasionally seeing your "persona" in the same way that one would imagine something with your eyes closed.
I always envision my face, but unfortunately not only in social situations. I'm afraid that these "personas", products of being too self conscious, have taken over my sense of self. They are fake, but there is nothing underneath either. So I am left here with this hopeless feeling of being unreal and dead.
edit: there is something "underneath"... but i lose my ability to see that when anxiety gets strong enough.
Do any of you actually envision yourself, or your facial expression, to the extent that your mind's eye is involved? That is, you are constantly or occasionally seeing your "persona" in the same way that one would imagine something with your eyes closed.
I always envision my face, but unfortunately not only in social situations. I'm afraid that these "personas", products of being too self conscious, have taken over my sense of self. They are fake, but there is nothing underneath either. So I am left here with this hopeless feeling of being unreal and dead.
edit: there is something "underneath"... but i lose my ability to see that when anxiety gets strong enough.