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nick-dudley
09-14-2010, 05:31 PM
Hi everyone.
my name is nick, and i am from the uk, west midlands, heart of industry, or wayever is left of it :D
I am 39 years of age, have always had a relatively stress- free life, makes it hard to reason with why I have anxiety.
From what I can recall, i had my first panic moment at around 11 years of age, thinking back and reflecting on it, thats what it was.
Have been ok through teens, 20's to early 30's, apart from the occasional " fear- of - death" panic, which i am assuming most people have, fear of unknown etc.
Then around 7 years ago, it changed - i was diagnosed with labyrinthitis, suffered dreadfully emotionally, and physically.
Lasted for 9 months, then woke up one day all symptoms went, i felt normal once more, if you can undertand what i mean?
then about 2 years ago, it all started, chest pains, over- emotional feelings, obsessive behaviour, the list goes on and on, you name a disease / condition, i had it, or at least convinced myself of that :oops:
Since then seems to have been a constant anxiety battle, eradicating one symptom, then another rears its ugly head, and replaces it with something unexpected :roll:
had a lot of globus lately, occasional dizzines, the "fake"" wheeze, that is not effected by standard asthma inhalators, fear of choking etc, etc, long list available on request but you get the point ;)
I take great relief from seeing others get themselves better with these minor instances, and getting themselves strong enough afterwards, physically and mentally :D
I feel like I am on a downwardspiral sometimes. But I am learning to climb the road to health again.
Nick.

Charmbracelet81
09-14-2010, 07:57 PM
Welcome, Nick.
Oh, what our minds can make up! I had a SEVERE fear of my heart stopping/heart attack/dysrythmia ect. because of the anxiety/skipped heart beats. Well after a year of therapy, my symptoms of my heart started going down. Skipped beats were like 20 a day to feeling 1 or 2 or none. I felt like I was getting somewhere....then out of no where...BAM! I felt like I couldn't breath and I had a full blown panic attack. I felt like my lungs were slowly but surely not getting enough air and I was a goner! I even kissed my 3 year old and told her I loved her :oops: it was horrible. I called my therapist and she talked me through the attack, and rationalized my thoughts and I started to "come down." She explained, that all of a sudden I was starting to feel better, dealing with my anxiety and that the brain doesn't like "unemployment" so it found something else to fixate on. Ever since, (3 weeks ago) I don't focus on my heart, but on my breathing. It's a vicious cycle, but we can get through it!

Itzomi
09-15-2010, 11:16 AM
the brain doesn't like "unemployment" so it found something else to fixate on.

Such an interesting way of putting it! I love it!

Itzomi
09-15-2010, 11:19 AM
Hi, Nick!

I know the feeling - obsessing about one symptom, finally getting rid of it, but finding yet another!! It's a vicious cycle!!

I hope this board is helpful to you! I am new here myself. :)

Terror-x
09-15-2010, 04:20 PM
hi nick welcome to the forum buddy im from east midlands lol yes i can understand you going into the anxiety and with your experieance im sure you have been able to controle it so i think you would be a great help to some people on this forum buddy some good advise is allways welcome :D

Charmbracelet81
09-17-2010, 09:42 AM
Thanks, Itzomi! I like it too! It really helped me, becaseu I get down on myself when I get better about one area of worry and move on to another, and it really makes sence to me that the anxious brain wants to stay employed! LOL