sadflower
09-06-2010, 11:06 AM
Hi all,
I don't know why I feel the need to keep posting on these forums, but it seems to help, so here goes.
I am 28, been suffering from anxiety and depression for years. On and off anti-depressants for years, although none for the past several. I choose to self medicate instead. Have been in a relationship with a Type-1 diabetic for three years, and I have to be honest, it is really taking a toll on my mental health. He has severe hypo-glycemic episodes, which means at any given moment I may be called on to save his life. That may sound exaggerated, but it's really not. It's terrifying when it happens, could be anytime, anywhere, unexpectedly. When his levels go to low, he gets confused and irritable, then starts shaking and cold sweats. Often he doesn't catch it in time and so someone must administer glucose or he will start seizing, and could eventually cause a coma or death if not treated immediately. Sometimes it happens when he is alone and he will come out of it by himself (your liver stores emergency sugar, but this is not a fail-safe).
Anyhow - I worry all the time. While we're sleeping I have to be right next to him or I freak out. If I'm at work (which I am every morning almost) I worry the entire time. If I don't hear from him every few hours, I worry. If I call and he doesn't answer, I panic and have to drive home to check on him. I recently cancelled a trip because I couldn't be away from him for three days. I don't know what to do. We argue all the time, mostly because of my constant need to ask him if he's ok. He can be verbally/emotionally abusive beyond belief and this is not helping my already low self-esteem. I see my life going nowhere but towards endless worry and depression. He will probably die way sooner than me, as he is older and has been diabetic for 30 years. I just get sadder everyday. Have no interest in anything and cannot stop this anxiety!
Help - please.
sadflower
I don't know why I feel the need to keep posting on these forums, but it seems to help, so here goes.
I am 28, been suffering from anxiety and depression for years. On and off anti-depressants for years, although none for the past several. I choose to self medicate instead. Have been in a relationship with a Type-1 diabetic for three years, and I have to be honest, it is really taking a toll on my mental health. He has severe hypo-glycemic episodes, which means at any given moment I may be called on to save his life. That may sound exaggerated, but it's really not. It's terrifying when it happens, could be anytime, anywhere, unexpectedly. When his levels go to low, he gets confused and irritable, then starts shaking and cold sweats. Often he doesn't catch it in time and so someone must administer glucose or he will start seizing, and could eventually cause a coma or death if not treated immediately. Sometimes it happens when he is alone and he will come out of it by himself (your liver stores emergency sugar, but this is not a fail-safe).
Anyhow - I worry all the time. While we're sleeping I have to be right next to him or I freak out. If I'm at work (which I am every morning almost) I worry the entire time. If I don't hear from him every few hours, I worry. If I call and he doesn't answer, I panic and have to drive home to check on him. I recently cancelled a trip because I couldn't be away from him for three days. I don't know what to do. We argue all the time, mostly because of my constant need to ask him if he's ok. He can be verbally/emotionally abusive beyond belief and this is not helping my already low self-esteem. I see my life going nowhere but towards endless worry and depression. He will probably die way sooner than me, as he is older and has been diabetic for 30 years. I just get sadder everyday. Have no interest in anything and cannot stop this anxiety!
Help - please.
sadflower