ciaran_p
08-25-2010, 07:14 AM
I've been diagnosed with GAD. Im 27 now, and have been suffering with it since I was 20. For 6 of those years I didn't know what was wrong with me, and they were pretty dark years, from thinking i had a brain tumour, taking anti depressant because i was told i had depression( fluoxitine actually made the anxiety worse) to breaking down in front of my mother because I couldn't keep it to myself anymore. For most of that period, Derealisation has been my main problem, and although Im not completely over it, being able to understand it has helped me rationalise my thoughts and see it for what it is: ie, an intrusive mind set that makes you question the reality of everything! Anyway, by managing that, I have been told that my anxiety levels were the cause of the derealisation. I still get very anxious spells for weeks at a time, for no reason, and when its not so bad, i am constantly thinking of how to get better, so it is with me in one way or another 24/7. The physical effects of anxiety are very unpleasant. I can feel it through my limbs and back, and have periods of intense pressure in my head (3 neurologists and 2 brain scans have shown no irregularities in my head). It goes beyond 'butterflies in the tummy'. Hangovers are intensified by this, where all symptoms of anxiety are heightened, and although i love to have a drink with friends, I kind of dread it, because of the inevitable feelings i will experience for a few days after. I donn't fear any situations, like flying, confined spaces or speaking in public, but when the anxiety (which is always there at some level) intensifies it can make me avoid situations and make life pretty unenjoyable. EG, I am a newly qualified history teacher, and although I love the subject, I feel like the anxiety really holds me back from enjoying the whole experience, even though you would be hard pushed to realise I have a problem. I dont drink caffeine, I drink camomile tea, exercise a lot and try relaxation techniques twice a week, but the symptoms still persist. If anyone reading this can relate, then maybe you could share your experiences and hopefully, your success in alleviating anxiety.