Dreaming of the day...

[CLV]

I'm 28 and suffered from Anxiety for many years now. It's very reassuring and good to see that I'm not the only one with this horrible illness.

It really hit home how serious it is when I went away on training for a new job, and had to return because I couldn't cope - horrible :cry:

The biggest worry for me, aside from all the usual symptons, is losing my Partner and not being able to live my life independantly - I don't know if anybody else feels the same?

Even if it helps for just a second, I want to reassure the sufferers that you're not alone. Hopefully, we'll all beat this one day, and be able to live our lives to the fullest! It's a dream I have, and I'm sure many of you have the same one, that one day this will stop controlling our lives.

I'm going to start medication, and some counselling - so here's hoping! 8)

[Layyna]

I'm new here and am so glad to know that I'm not alone.

I find it frustrating how I can feel so alone sometimes even when there are people everywhere around me. It's like my anxious thoughts have me trapped alone inside my head when I just want to be worry-free and enjoy life! My entire life (22 years :D ) I have been plagued and consumed by my own anxiey...yikes!

Now I've finally found this amazing guy who is care-free, relaxed, and just enjoys his life. He's my best friend and like you, I find myself worrying and stressing about what would happen if we were torn apart. He's helped me deal with much of my anxiety, and I feel like I couldn't keep working on it without him. I wouldn't be able to get out of bed everyday and then..*stops her anxiety-ridden rambling*

Then I remember what a wise person once told me. "I could never be with the person I loved unless I knew for sure they could live and love without me".

My best friend made me promise that if anything ever happened to him, his wish for me would be to continue dealing with my anxiety and focus on being happy! This is the point where I take a deep breath, stop thinking about myself, and come to the conclusion that I would be okay without him. Maybe it feels like a lie sometimes, but it's better than saying "I can't" or "I couldn't" or "I wouldn't" or "I'd never" or anything else!

Besides, I don't think anyone is ever 100% confident. Some people are just better at faking it until they make it =]

Thanks for giving me a chance to vent..it felt good!