Pancthulhu
05-14-2006, 01:16 PM
I can't believe I'm actually posting about this on a public forum, but here goes...
It started about a month ago when for two weeks now I felt almost constantly panicky. I had to walk out of lessons a couple of times because of it. I went to see a doctor and was prescribed Betablockers which stopped me feeling panicky. Now though, I just feel very unreal as if this isn't really happening. I keep having to remind myself that what is happening is happening, even though I know it is. I just feel as if I'm dreaming all the time. My vision is not affected, but I feel detached, as if I'm seeing things in a different way. It's like when you feel tired and you don't totally take everything in, only it's like that all the time. It's really freaking me out. I'm scared I'm going insane or something, although when I went to see a doctor she said I was approaching it rationally.
There are a couple of things I think it could be; firstly, I have A Level exams next month (although I'm not actually that concerned about them). Secondly, I saw a play two weeks ago called 'The Cut' which kind of freaked me out - embarrasingly I have a phobia of blood and I had to walk out the play for fifteen minutes because it freaked me out. Then I worried about why it disturbed me so much, and that was really when I started feeling anxious.
Also, the moment where my anxiety totally started was in my boyfriend's room; about a month before that I had tried hash cake for the first time (I had never even been drunk before). I took too much and it freaked me out, so perhaps being back there was a reminder of it. When I started panicking I just felt like I had to get out of the room.
Have any of you experienced anything like this before? Should I see a therapist or hope it goes away on its own? I'd appreciate some advice. It's really scaring me.
It started about a month ago when for two weeks now I felt almost constantly panicky. I had to walk out of lessons a couple of times because of it. I went to see a doctor and was prescribed Betablockers which stopped me feeling panicky. Now though, I just feel very unreal as if this isn't really happening. I keep having to remind myself that what is happening is happening, even though I know it is. I just feel as if I'm dreaming all the time. My vision is not affected, but I feel detached, as if I'm seeing things in a different way. It's like when you feel tired and you don't totally take everything in, only it's like that all the time. It's really freaking me out. I'm scared I'm going insane or something, although when I went to see a doctor she said I was approaching it rationally.
There are a couple of things I think it could be; firstly, I have A Level exams next month (although I'm not actually that concerned about them). Secondly, I saw a play two weeks ago called 'The Cut' which kind of freaked me out - embarrasingly I have a phobia of blood and I had to walk out the play for fifteen minutes because it freaked me out. Then I worried about why it disturbed me so much, and that was really when I started feeling anxious.
Also, the moment where my anxiety totally started was in my boyfriend's room; about a month before that I had tried hash cake for the first time (I had never even been drunk before). I took too much and it freaked me out, so perhaps being back there was a reminder of it. When I started panicking I just felt like I had to get out of the room.
Have any of you experienced anything like this before? Should I see a therapist or hope it goes away on its own? I'd appreciate some advice. It's really scaring me.