Pugzilla
07-24-2010, 02:39 PM
This could begin to develop into a long topic, but for the sake of many things I thought it would be best to try get straight to the point. I have been suffering from what I believe to be Anxiety for around 10-8 years now and have gone through many different stages.
I will try to express how lost I am with how it has developed over time. I just hope that this could possibly be read by someone that might understand as I'm beginning to loose my mind.
Male, 24
- The earliest I can remember been seriously anxious was when I was around 15, invited to go to the cinema with friends whenever I left the house I felt overwhelmed with anxiety. I often was sick before I left the house or before arriving to the bus stop. Typically after I was sick my feelings of sickness would go away for a while before returning depending on where and how I felt.
- I still to this day suffer from the above but it only effects major events, like going paint balling with friends or go-karting. Things that are in places I have never been or have an element of uncertainty that surrounds them.
- Over time I have developed what seems like morning sickness, any smell or trigger will cause me to gag, morning breath will often cause me to gag randomly until I brush my teeth. If I catch a smell or even my girlfriends freshly sprayed perfume in the morning I will gag. This is a massive problem when walking to work with all the fumes from the cars in the city centre.
- Any time I gag or feel like I am about to throw up I wiggle my hands, play with my fingers. Do anything to take my mind of it. I can sometimes have it go away in seconds, other times It gets worse and worse until I physically throw up.
- I am generally a confident person on the outside, I stand up for my friends and don't let myself get pushed around. I like the feeling of adrenaline but find myself feeling sick minutes later from anxiety.
- I have only ever had one panic attack, it happened in a car before we travelled to my girlfriends house, a place I have visited and even lived before. The trip in question made me overly anxious and I had just been eating which made me paranoid that if I was sick it would be food.
- Another random point I just realised, many of the times I am sick typically because its early in the morning it is very often not food. But instead... not to sound nasty, but flem (spit) slightly yellow and often feeling slightly acidic.
- One thing that could possibly help identify things, I used to sleep walk as a child very badly. I had a repeating nightmare that would cause me to feel as if I was been crushed in-between two animals (I have no fear of animals). During my sleep walk I would always vomit in random places. Even wake up finding myself cleaning up in hopes my parents wouldn't notice.
- I had a psychiatrist for my sleep walking and it went away gradually and slowly by the time I was around 10 or 12 if I remember rightly it has passed away.
- I have had fairly big factors and issues which have contributed to my anxiety as a teenager but after going through Univercity and getting a job and starting to settle down its just not going away. If anything it has recently been getting worse. I have got to the point where I will gag at least 5-20 times before I get to work. I often find myself breathing heavily and randomly while sitting at my desk at work for no real reason as all I am doing is working and listening to music.
- I have no idea what is going on in my head, I very rarely feel nervous when I'm anxious and don't even know what I am getting anxious about.
Sorry to vent, I had a feeling I would ramble on so thought it would be best to bullet point things. I don't mean to be rude or very much straight to the point. Just need help trying to find out what the hell is going on and has been going on for years now.
I will try to express how lost I am with how it has developed over time. I just hope that this could possibly be read by someone that might understand as I'm beginning to loose my mind.
Male, 24
- The earliest I can remember been seriously anxious was when I was around 15, invited to go to the cinema with friends whenever I left the house I felt overwhelmed with anxiety. I often was sick before I left the house or before arriving to the bus stop. Typically after I was sick my feelings of sickness would go away for a while before returning depending on where and how I felt.
- I still to this day suffer from the above but it only effects major events, like going paint balling with friends or go-karting. Things that are in places I have never been or have an element of uncertainty that surrounds them.
- Over time I have developed what seems like morning sickness, any smell or trigger will cause me to gag, morning breath will often cause me to gag randomly until I brush my teeth. If I catch a smell or even my girlfriends freshly sprayed perfume in the morning I will gag. This is a massive problem when walking to work with all the fumes from the cars in the city centre.
- Any time I gag or feel like I am about to throw up I wiggle my hands, play with my fingers. Do anything to take my mind of it. I can sometimes have it go away in seconds, other times It gets worse and worse until I physically throw up.
- I am generally a confident person on the outside, I stand up for my friends and don't let myself get pushed around. I like the feeling of adrenaline but find myself feeling sick minutes later from anxiety.
- I have only ever had one panic attack, it happened in a car before we travelled to my girlfriends house, a place I have visited and even lived before. The trip in question made me overly anxious and I had just been eating which made me paranoid that if I was sick it would be food.
- Another random point I just realised, many of the times I am sick typically because its early in the morning it is very often not food. But instead... not to sound nasty, but flem (spit) slightly yellow and often feeling slightly acidic.
- One thing that could possibly help identify things, I used to sleep walk as a child very badly. I had a repeating nightmare that would cause me to feel as if I was been crushed in-between two animals (I have no fear of animals). During my sleep walk I would always vomit in random places. Even wake up finding myself cleaning up in hopes my parents wouldn't notice.
- I had a psychiatrist for my sleep walking and it went away gradually and slowly by the time I was around 10 or 12 if I remember rightly it has passed away.
- I have had fairly big factors and issues which have contributed to my anxiety as a teenager but after going through Univercity and getting a job and starting to settle down its just not going away. If anything it has recently been getting worse. I have got to the point where I will gag at least 5-20 times before I get to work. I often find myself breathing heavily and randomly while sitting at my desk at work for no real reason as all I am doing is working and listening to music.
- I have no idea what is going on in my head, I very rarely feel nervous when I'm anxious and don't even know what I am getting anxious about.
Sorry to vent, I had a feeling I would ramble on so thought it would be best to bullet point things. I don't mean to be rude or very much straight to the point. Just need help trying to find out what the hell is going on and has been going on for years now.