morf
07-07-2010, 03:40 AM
Since coming down with what I consider anxiety 4 months ago, these are my personal symptoms: (feel free to share your own in a new post below)
Constant symptoms:
Vision; slightly blurry with depth perception issues
Hearing; not as good as it used to be
Depression
Forgetting that it's necessary to eat/drink
Fear of self-expression or self-presentation
Feeling of urgency
Loss of usual time perception
Forgetfulness and carelessness, which lead to what appears as laziness
Metallic taste in mouth
Off-balance, dizzy
Decrease in sex-drive
Not as socially active, on or offline
Increased fear of large, unidentified flying insects, or those which sting
Over-analytic; cautious
Decrease in care for personal hygiene or life in general
Feeling as if I appear to be a 'tweaker' (alone or not)
Fear of becoming a vegetable
Fear of becoming dependent on current medication
On occasion, usually 1 or more occurrences per day (unknown triggers):
Rapid Heart Rate
Overwhelming feeling that I am going to black out
Feeling of excessive blood flow/pressure to the brain; warm head/ears
Tingly feeling throughout the body, followed by absolute fear, causing usual symptoms to be overwhelming
Trouble recalling basic information about my identity, when asked
Often hoping to vanish into thin air
Thoughts of the afterlife, if there is one
Feeling as if in a dream-like state
In specific situations (possible/known triggers):
Around people: Talkative, trouble getting to a point. Noticeably uncomfortable.
When speaking: Occasional feeling of lockjaw or something to that effect.
When eating: Food is not as enjoyable as it used to be. Decreased appetite.
When doing a task: Easily distracted, trouble focusing, memory issues, overly detail-oriented, trouble multitasking.
In a large, enclosed area: (E.g. Large store) Excessive panic
In my bedroom: Fear of leaving it. It's my only comfort-zone.
When alone: Fear of darkness; audible/visual hallucinations, sleep paralysis
When exercising: Vision issues increase. Dizziness.
Around large crowds: Same as in large, enclosed areas.
Driving: Issues with perception of velocity.
Sleep:
Before sleep: Depression, thoughts of not wanting to wake up again.
During sleep: Very memorable dreams, unlike normal. Mostly bad.
When waking up: Low energy, wanting to stay asleep and never wake up.
Sleep in general: Oversleep and Undersleep. Schedule fluctuates. Insomnia.
Medication: 1mg Alprazolam (xanax) daily - 3 months and counting
*Medication is likely cause for certain symptoms.
Does it help to alleviate symptoms? For the most part, but not all of the time. On rare occasion I feel 100% normal, but that is of course until something triggers a known symptom, then all hell breaks loose.
If I don't take it for a day or miss a dose: Symptoms increase
...as of 3 days ago, I've begun splitting my dose in half from 1mg to 1/2mg - hard to say how it'll progress, but I feel I may be becoming dependent and not realizing it, so I'm hoping it works out.
Other treatment: None currently, but considering various options.
Male / 24 Years Old - Besides anxiety, very healthy according to tests.
Constant symptoms:
Vision; slightly blurry with depth perception issues
Hearing; not as good as it used to be
Depression
Forgetting that it's necessary to eat/drink
Fear of self-expression or self-presentation
Feeling of urgency
Loss of usual time perception
Forgetfulness and carelessness, which lead to what appears as laziness
Metallic taste in mouth
Off-balance, dizzy
Decrease in sex-drive
Not as socially active, on or offline
Increased fear of large, unidentified flying insects, or those which sting
Over-analytic; cautious
Decrease in care for personal hygiene or life in general
Feeling as if I appear to be a 'tweaker' (alone or not)
Fear of becoming a vegetable
Fear of becoming dependent on current medication
On occasion, usually 1 or more occurrences per day (unknown triggers):
Rapid Heart Rate
Overwhelming feeling that I am going to black out
Feeling of excessive blood flow/pressure to the brain; warm head/ears
Tingly feeling throughout the body, followed by absolute fear, causing usual symptoms to be overwhelming
Trouble recalling basic information about my identity, when asked
Often hoping to vanish into thin air
Thoughts of the afterlife, if there is one
Feeling as if in a dream-like state
In specific situations (possible/known triggers):
Around people: Talkative, trouble getting to a point. Noticeably uncomfortable.
When speaking: Occasional feeling of lockjaw or something to that effect.
When eating: Food is not as enjoyable as it used to be. Decreased appetite.
When doing a task: Easily distracted, trouble focusing, memory issues, overly detail-oriented, trouble multitasking.
In a large, enclosed area: (E.g. Large store) Excessive panic
In my bedroom: Fear of leaving it. It's my only comfort-zone.
When alone: Fear of darkness; audible/visual hallucinations, sleep paralysis
When exercising: Vision issues increase. Dizziness.
Around large crowds: Same as in large, enclosed areas.
Driving: Issues with perception of velocity.
Sleep:
Before sleep: Depression, thoughts of not wanting to wake up again.
During sleep: Very memorable dreams, unlike normal. Mostly bad.
When waking up: Low energy, wanting to stay asleep and never wake up.
Sleep in general: Oversleep and Undersleep. Schedule fluctuates. Insomnia.
Medication: 1mg Alprazolam (xanax) daily - 3 months and counting
*Medication is likely cause for certain symptoms.
Does it help to alleviate symptoms? For the most part, but not all of the time. On rare occasion I feel 100% normal, but that is of course until something triggers a known symptom, then all hell breaks loose.
If I don't take it for a day or miss a dose: Symptoms increase
...as of 3 days ago, I've begun splitting my dose in half from 1mg to 1/2mg - hard to say how it'll progress, but I feel I may be becoming dependent and not realizing it, so I'm hoping it works out.
Other treatment: None currently, but considering various options.
Male / 24 Years Old - Besides anxiety, very healthy according to tests.