panicsucks
07-01-2010, 03:59 AM
I'm loosing control of things in life... i've not had a job since december 2009 my money situation is terrible, i cant go to the jobcenter (UK) and get my entitlements sorted out as im too scared about panic yet if i dont i get anxious from no money etc... i really dont know what to do...
it all started in 1995 i walked into a room where my grandad had passed away and i saw his body which at 9 years old scared the hell out of me, since then iv had health anxiety, thn my parents split up in 2001 and this bought on panic attacks, i took marajunana to try and escape the maddness in my life this i think has made things worse in the long run...
on top of this my mum may have breast cancer (things look positive but not been told for sure yet) i have a girl friend of 5 years and shes very supportive but things like going to cinema etc like normal couples do we have done about 2 or 3 times.... she wants to do more but i cant and its stressful...
all of this is adding up and i am getting more frequent heart palputations and worry (iv had heart palputations for years now but recently there more noticable and the more i worry the more there are)
i need your advice guys i need to know how to fix myself up i want to do well in life and just be happy i cant ever enjoy anything i cant ever lookforward to things... everything has a downer on it
another thing is should i stay out of a job for now and work out the anxiety? or get work and do it at the same time? work stresses me
what should i do ? i really want to stop all this now andenjoy my life!! :| :cry:
it all started in 1995 i walked into a room where my grandad had passed away and i saw his body which at 9 years old scared the hell out of me, since then iv had health anxiety, thn my parents split up in 2001 and this bought on panic attacks, i took marajunana to try and escape the maddness in my life this i think has made things worse in the long run...
on top of this my mum may have breast cancer (things look positive but not been told for sure yet) i have a girl friend of 5 years and shes very supportive but things like going to cinema etc like normal couples do we have done about 2 or 3 times.... she wants to do more but i cant and its stressful...
all of this is adding up and i am getting more frequent heart palputations and worry (iv had heart palputations for years now but recently there more noticable and the more i worry the more there are)
i need your advice guys i need to know how to fix myself up i want to do well in life and just be happy i cant ever enjoy anything i cant ever lookforward to things... everything has a downer on it
another thing is should i stay out of a job for now and work out the anxiety? or get work and do it at the same time? work stresses me
what should i do ? i really want to stop all this now andenjoy my life!! :| :cry: