liam
06-02-2010, 12:25 PM
Hello everyone,
This is my first post on this forum so im not sure if this is the right place to put this message (sorry if it isn’t). Im just unsure about a about a few things right now so before i took any further action i wanted to see what other people have to say about my anxiety or whatever it is.
I recently got told i possible have OCD by a GP but its not really a diagnose because it wasn’t done by a real shrink. Basically what happens is i freak out when im in public places and have this overwhelming fear im going to urinate in my pants. Its never happened to me before but for some reason its nearly ALWAYS on my mind when im in public places. I start sweating really badly and get tightness in my chest. I have different levels of this anxiety, from walking down the street with it being on my mind and constantly putting my hand down my pants to check which sometimes i don’t believe no matter how many times i do, to hiding in a toilet cubical checking worried to come out.
I can see why the GP though it could have been OCD because i check but now im not sure because ive started to realise that i don’t get this feeling anywhere near as much when im around people i know. My mind tells me how illogical this is and how obvious it would be if i ever did but it doesn’t help. Even if people knew i had wet myself it wouldn’t be so bad, im travelling and would never see them ever again but nothing seems to help. When this first started happening i was stoned and i smoked a few times after this having the same result and my actions not long after this probably didn’t help by wearing incontinent pads which i knew EVEN if it happened no one would know, but it only made me freak out more and check in the toilets more.
Im considering ending my travels to go home and sort this shit out because i can hardly enjoy other countries while being in fear on a tour bus etc. i would go to a shrink if i had the money to spare, basically i just want this bullshit to go away. Before all this anxiety i use to be a confident person but when i started getting this 2 years ago (it went away after 4 months and came back again 6 months ago but it was never really gone, just not as bad) ive become insanity self-conscious and insecure.
Anyway, sorry about the rant, i just couldn’t stop typing once i started. Maybe i really do need to talk to someone about this. Would really appreciate any comments, cheers.
This is my first post on this forum so im not sure if this is the right place to put this message (sorry if it isn’t). Im just unsure about a about a few things right now so before i took any further action i wanted to see what other people have to say about my anxiety or whatever it is.
I recently got told i possible have OCD by a GP but its not really a diagnose because it wasn’t done by a real shrink. Basically what happens is i freak out when im in public places and have this overwhelming fear im going to urinate in my pants. Its never happened to me before but for some reason its nearly ALWAYS on my mind when im in public places. I start sweating really badly and get tightness in my chest. I have different levels of this anxiety, from walking down the street with it being on my mind and constantly putting my hand down my pants to check which sometimes i don’t believe no matter how many times i do, to hiding in a toilet cubical checking worried to come out.
I can see why the GP though it could have been OCD because i check but now im not sure because ive started to realise that i don’t get this feeling anywhere near as much when im around people i know. My mind tells me how illogical this is and how obvious it would be if i ever did but it doesn’t help. Even if people knew i had wet myself it wouldn’t be so bad, im travelling and would never see them ever again but nothing seems to help. When this first started happening i was stoned and i smoked a few times after this having the same result and my actions not long after this probably didn’t help by wearing incontinent pads which i knew EVEN if it happened no one would know, but it only made me freak out more and check in the toilets more.
Im considering ending my travels to go home and sort this shit out because i can hardly enjoy other countries while being in fear on a tour bus etc. i would go to a shrink if i had the money to spare, basically i just want this bullshit to go away. Before all this anxiety i use to be a confident person but when i started getting this 2 years ago (it went away after 4 months and came back again 6 months ago but it was never really gone, just not as bad) ive become insanity self-conscious and insecure.
Anyway, sorry about the rant, i just couldn’t stop typing once i started. Maybe i really do need to talk to someone about this. Would really appreciate any comments, cheers.