anxiousgirl79
05-20-2010, 08:42 AM
My name is Kaley, and I suffer from Panic Disorder and Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder...I don't obsessively wash my hands or check door locks. I just finished a month long outpatient group therapy program. I am taking anti-anxiety meds (been on 5 different SSRIs and 3 different Benzos in the last year.) My psych now has been on 40 mg Celexa (actually already lost 10 lbs in 3 weeks on it), Xanax XR .5mg twice a day, and Restoril 30 mg to remain asleep.
I have always been panicky, a people-pleaser, and had complete black and white thinking. I am scared that now that my program is over and I am home alone all day until my husband comes home from work that my mind will go back to racing all day. Until last year, I had a good job as a Business Banker until I got fired fired for getting a DUI (self-medicating at its finest). I am an overachiever, and I lost much of my identity through this.
I am reaching out for the first time on a public forum. I have never joined any site like this, but I know I need help and to help others like me. Any comments or suggestions are greatly appreciated.
Every morning I have been finding a positive quote, and then reflect on how that quote evokes emotion in me. This has gone from being a journal to a blog. I am trying to remain hopeful and hopefully help others. I left it open for anonymous comments, as I'd like to see how others can relate to my feelings.
anxiouskaley.blogspot
Thank you for your time, and any insight you can give.
Kaley
I have always been panicky, a people-pleaser, and had complete black and white thinking. I am scared that now that my program is over and I am home alone all day until my husband comes home from work that my mind will go back to racing all day. Until last year, I had a good job as a Business Banker until I got fired fired for getting a DUI (self-medicating at its finest). I am an overachiever, and I lost much of my identity through this.
I am reaching out for the first time on a public forum. I have never joined any site like this, but I know I need help and to help others like me. Any comments or suggestions are greatly appreciated.
Every morning I have been finding a positive quote, and then reflect on how that quote evokes emotion in me. This has gone from being a journal to a blog. I am trying to remain hopeful and hopefully help others. I left it open for anonymous comments, as I'd like to see how others can relate to my feelings.
anxiouskaley.blogspot
Thank you for your time, and any insight you can give.
Kaley