cakeykate
04-12-2010, 04:09 PM
I have only just recently thought about me having anxiety problems, although I believe they have been going on since I was in primary school (im 18 now). I have always worried constantly, about nothing and everything. Everytime someone I love goes anywhere, even if its just to the shop, then I panic, especially if they are late. I can't even go into a room first, someone has to go in front of me.
I used to go to school about 0-3 days a week. This went on for 5 years. I couldn't handle the stress of homework or bullies, and I would cause so much trouble for my mum. I would always feel sick and nervous and would have such crying fits. I feel silly talking about it now, my school problems were what everyone had to deal with in school, but I felt too depressed and ill to even think about going at all. Teachers had to talk to my mum about it, we went to so many meetings with them that would only make things worse.
I have only just recently got a job, the interview made me sweaty and nervous. I can't imagine how much I blushed. But I managed to get the job, but now just working on the till, I become so nervous that I feel like I might faint. It's such an awful experience, it makes me not want to go to work at all. I have to work, which is the worst thing, I wish so much that I didn't so that I wouldn't get so panicky. My boss is really lovely, but I can't even talk to her about it, I think I'm scared she won't understand or will fire me or something.
I'm even too scared to go to the doctor about it. I feel pathetic when I think about it, but I honestly don't want to phone up or go and see him. I don't even know what I'm scared of!
Please help, I don't know what to do with myself! I have a lot of other things to say, but I feel I have said enough for a minute! I feel very alone at the moment.
I used to go to school about 0-3 days a week. This went on for 5 years. I couldn't handle the stress of homework or bullies, and I would cause so much trouble for my mum. I would always feel sick and nervous and would have such crying fits. I feel silly talking about it now, my school problems were what everyone had to deal with in school, but I felt too depressed and ill to even think about going at all. Teachers had to talk to my mum about it, we went to so many meetings with them that would only make things worse.
I have only just recently got a job, the interview made me sweaty and nervous. I can't imagine how much I blushed. But I managed to get the job, but now just working on the till, I become so nervous that I feel like I might faint. It's such an awful experience, it makes me not want to go to work at all. I have to work, which is the worst thing, I wish so much that I didn't so that I wouldn't get so panicky. My boss is really lovely, but I can't even talk to her about it, I think I'm scared she won't understand or will fire me or something.
I'm even too scared to go to the doctor about it. I feel pathetic when I think about it, but I honestly don't want to phone up or go and see him. I don't even know what I'm scared of!
Please help, I don't know what to do with myself! I have a lot of other things to say, but I feel I have said enough for a minute! I feel very alone at the moment.