Agon
04-07-2010, 07:19 AM
Hi. This is my first post here, please be nice. ;D
My name's Issa. I'm 15 years old. I've been a ballet dancer since... well, forever. [haha not. i started when I was in 1st grade i think.]
I've considered posting my worries in a dancer forum, but then I realized that my fear wasn't really all about dancing and I figured the people on the forum would just be annoyed.
So here goes. I'm very very self-conscious. I don't know if I have a specific disorder. If I do have a disorder, I suppose I have a mild case compared to some people.
I recently switched ballet schools after having a hiatus of about 6 months. Tomorrow's the first day, and I'm nervous. I've been nervous for like the past 3 days. God.
I reflected on myself and noticed that this nervousness about trying new things and meeting new people has been present for so very long, and I'm sick of it. I need to know if there's anyone out there who overcame this problem and how. :[
My heart's just pounding and my hands are clammy. [Mostly cos I'm thinking about the teacher, and she seems pretty scary. haha] The other dancers are very good, and I'm worried I might look retarded seeing as I'm rusty after 6 months without training.
AHHH help. My problem doesn't just concern ballet class, it concerns practically everything I do in my life. I'm scared of looking like a dork. That usually stops me from starting conversations. People tell me that this is a normal adolescent phase, but hell, I never see my friends go through this kinda stuff.
SOO there goes my epicly long post. THANKS FOR READING, I needed to vent.
My name's Issa. I'm 15 years old. I've been a ballet dancer since... well, forever. [haha not. i started when I was in 1st grade i think.]
I've considered posting my worries in a dancer forum, but then I realized that my fear wasn't really all about dancing and I figured the people on the forum would just be annoyed.
So here goes. I'm very very self-conscious. I don't know if I have a specific disorder. If I do have a disorder, I suppose I have a mild case compared to some people.
I recently switched ballet schools after having a hiatus of about 6 months. Tomorrow's the first day, and I'm nervous. I've been nervous for like the past 3 days. God.
I reflected on myself and noticed that this nervousness about trying new things and meeting new people has been present for so very long, and I'm sick of it. I need to know if there's anyone out there who overcame this problem and how. :[
My heart's just pounding and my hands are clammy. [Mostly cos I'm thinking about the teacher, and she seems pretty scary. haha] The other dancers are very good, and I'm worried I might look retarded seeing as I'm rusty after 6 months without training.
AHHH help. My problem doesn't just concern ballet class, it concerns practically everything I do in my life. I'm scared of looking like a dork. That usually stops me from starting conversations. People tell me that this is a normal adolescent phase, but hell, I never see my friends go through this kinda stuff.
SOO there goes my epicly long post. THANKS FOR READING, I needed to vent.