arsenal19
04-05-2010, 10:36 AM
Hello everybody,
I have been having a very strange few days of late. However today it got to the point where enough was enough. So I decided to write down everything that was wrong I felt hasn't felt myself of late, and i tried to include some possible reasons to why I feel I have anxiety (which I will share shortly).
Not long after doing this I decided to make myself some lunch. However when doing so I suddenly had this overwhelming attack where I totally lost sense of reality.. I got really paranoid that my mind had actually lost what reality was and that my body could be doing something completely different and that I might be totally unaware that I was doing it. I had to get out of the kitchen because I was so scared that this in fact was happening and away from my parents and to my room where I felt safe and tried to concentrate on my breathing and bring my heart rate down. I was scared as hell!!!!
The things I've written that may have affected me are:
Being unable to describe certain emotions felt
Going through the "paces" in life without real control or making of decisions
Strange/ weird thoughts which scare me might take control
Feeling as if mind and body aren't connected
Trying to answer impossible questions.. (i.e. why are we here, and exploration of universe etc)
Comparison of humans and animals (really strange)
Worries of the future
Lack of being able to show true emotion
Feeling of not having anybody to share my emotions with
Other reasons:
My cat got put down 3 days ago (since then anxiety has been really bad as this was pretty much my best friend)
An obsession with training and diet.. i.e. very high protein and very low carbs intake
I feel my friends are disbanding
I do realise some of these things maybe to do with my personality as apposed to having anxiety issues, however I thought I would note everything that I could think of.
Any help etc would be so appreciated, as I said I am going to see the doctor tomorrow anyway.
I have been having a very strange few days of late. However today it got to the point where enough was enough. So I decided to write down everything that was wrong I felt hasn't felt myself of late, and i tried to include some possible reasons to why I feel I have anxiety (which I will share shortly).
Not long after doing this I decided to make myself some lunch. However when doing so I suddenly had this overwhelming attack where I totally lost sense of reality.. I got really paranoid that my mind had actually lost what reality was and that my body could be doing something completely different and that I might be totally unaware that I was doing it. I had to get out of the kitchen because I was so scared that this in fact was happening and away from my parents and to my room where I felt safe and tried to concentrate on my breathing and bring my heart rate down. I was scared as hell!!!!
The things I've written that may have affected me are:
Being unable to describe certain emotions felt
Going through the "paces" in life without real control or making of decisions
Strange/ weird thoughts which scare me might take control
Feeling as if mind and body aren't connected
Trying to answer impossible questions.. (i.e. why are we here, and exploration of universe etc)
Comparison of humans and animals (really strange)
Worries of the future
Lack of being able to show true emotion
Feeling of not having anybody to share my emotions with
Other reasons:
My cat got put down 3 days ago (since then anxiety has been really bad as this was pretty much my best friend)
An obsession with training and diet.. i.e. very high protein and very low carbs intake
I feel my friends are disbanding
I do realise some of these things maybe to do with my personality as apposed to having anxiety issues, however I thought I would note everything that I could think of.
Any help etc would be so appreciated, as I said I am going to see the doctor tomorrow anyway.