I am NEW and need A LOT of help

[Jillp]

My name is Jill. I am 43 years old. Since I was a kid, I had the fear of dying. I conquered it for several years then my boss's 19 year old daughter dropped dead and several people I knew. It started all over again for me. I felt myself slipping but couldn't stop. I am currently have a SEVERE attack and have felt my lymph nodes in both armpits probably 20 to 30 times a day for a month or two and now they are detectable. I am sure it's lymphoma. My Drs think I am nuts and probably discredit anything I say. I ratlonally say lymphoma wouldn't strike the exact same lymph node in each armpit. If you think that is working it's NOT> Anyone who would like to talk I am here.

[dodge2toughgirl]

I kno how this feels. Now I think my heart is going to stop or I have MS. So its nothing new. Like I say ur anxiety is what's causing this shit in the first place. Get it checked out but it will prob turn out to be fine. It may be a form of hypochondria. But it is alll anxiety related. The way I see it any more if I am suffering from any illness and I'm suppose to die and its my time I will. By in no means is this how I want to die, but if the lord is ready for me then he will take me. I get sick and tired of feeling like shit everyday. My bones crack and hurt. But I am not taking all of these medicines tobe drugged all the time either. I don't now if I helped u in any way but I tried.