lilythmageborn
02-08-2010, 03:55 AM
Last Sunday (Jan 31st) I had a panic attack. I woke up completely out of it (2 hours into sleep) and had a bit of an upset stomach, which triggered a panic attack. I did not sleep the rest of the night. I had taken a Xanax and it calmed me down.
January of last year I started taking Paxil 20mg for anxiety and it worked well for a few months. It stopped working, and I started feeling depressed, and extremely angry. I didn't tell the doctor because I thought she would put me on something stronger or different or wouldn't be able to help. I continued out the rest of my prescription (it ended in late Septemer) and quit cold turkey instead of using my last prescriptions to taper. I felt like I had beaten the anxiety.
Fast-forward to January of this year. My husband lost his job, so that was very stressful, but I thought I handled it well. He has a new job now. But last Sunday I had a panic attack, and after that would wake up panicy but not having an attack every night. Moving downstairs to a different bed seemed to help somehow, and I would fall back to sleep with no problems the rest of the day. But early Saturday morning I couldn't shake nausea and nervousness and never went to sleep. I called a suicide hotline, not because I was feeling suicidal, but just for advice and someone to help calm me. It worked temporarily, and a lot of things throughout the day worked temporarily, but nothing stopped it. I broke down and went to the ER because I was over 30 hours without sleep at that point. I was exhausted but the nausea and panic were killing me. They have me something for the nausea, and a tranquilizer. I was passed out before I was out of the hospital, and slept 12 hours.
Around 2:30 I took some sleeping pills to make myself sleep so that I wouldn't be up all night, alone (husband needs sleep for work). I slept two hours on them, but woke up feeling panicy again. Took a Xanax and it's sort of working, but I want to be up ASAP to call in a doctor's appt to get on pills again and get an appt with a shrink.
I have so many irrational fears. That I'm going to die if I go to sleep, going to die if I don't go to sleep, going to die if I take too many meds, that my husband will hate me for costing him so much money, that nothing will ever help and I'll have to check into a mental hospital...
Nothing I try to do seems to help. Relaxation techniques, addressing the fears, taking Xanax. For goodness sake, I took sleeping pills and still woke up.
I suppose I'm just looking for someone to talk to, someone to tell me about their own battles with it, anything. If nothing else, I know I cannot deal with this on my own, but my husband and friends are asleep and can't help me right now. So, is there anyone out there?
January of last year I started taking Paxil 20mg for anxiety and it worked well for a few months. It stopped working, and I started feeling depressed, and extremely angry. I didn't tell the doctor because I thought she would put me on something stronger or different or wouldn't be able to help. I continued out the rest of my prescription (it ended in late Septemer) and quit cold turkey instead of using my last prescriptions to taper. I felt like I had beaten the anxiety.
Fast-forward to January of this year. My husband lost his job, so that was very stressful, but I thought I handled it well. He has a new job now. But last Sunday I had a panic attack, and after that would wake up panicy but not having an attack every night. Moving downstairs to a different bed seemed to help somehow, and I would fall back to sleep with no problems the rest of the day. But early Saturday morning I couldn't shake nausea and nervousness and never went to sleep. I called a suicide hotline, not because I was feeling suicidal, but just for advice and someone to help calm me. It worked temporarily, and a lot of things throughout the day worked temporarily, but nothing stopped it. I broke down and went to the ER because I was over 30 hours without sleep at that point. I was exhausted but the nausea and panic were killing me. They have me something for the nausea, and a tranquilizer. I was passed out before I was out of the hospital, and slept 12 hours.
Around 2:30 I took some sleeping pills to make myself sleep so that I wouldn't be up all night, alone (husband needs sleep for work). I slept two hours on them, but woke up feeling panicy again. Took a Xanax and it's sort of working, but I want to be up ASAP to call in a doctor's appt to get on pills again and get an appt with a shrink.
I have so many irrational fears. That I'm going to die if I go to sleep, going to die if I don't go to sleep, going to die if I take too many meds, that my husband will hate me for costing him so much money, that nothing will ever help and I'll have to check into a mental hospital...
Nothing I try to do seems to help. Relaxation techniques, addressing the fears, taking Xanax. For goodness sake, I took sleeping pills and still woke up.
I suppose I'm just looking for someone to talk to, someone to tell me about their own battles with it, anything. If nothing else, I know I cannot deal with this on my own, but my husband and friends are asleep and can't help me right now. So, is there anyone out there?