Shepherd1991
01-06-2010, 07:10 AM
Hey everybody. =D
My name is Cody. I was very lucky... (sarcasm) and have been suffering from Social Anxiety, OCD, Bi Polar, Panic Attacks, you name it... since I was just a little guy. Same days I can't leave my room. I am afraid to do many things. Some days I feel great and do what I love best. I am a fire fighter (just a volunteer for now) but when I do feel good I hang out at the station. I am going the Police route so I want to get better before I am 21. I have been on SO many meds and they did nothing for me. Right now I am on Luvox and all it does is give me nightmares and makes me paranoid. I have major mood swings. None of it is violent. It sucks though, one minute I will be really happy, then I will feel sick and depressed and sad and lonely. It goes back and forth non stop. For about 3 months now I sleep all day and then do my stuff at night. I usually sleep for about 15 hours, then am up for about 3 and repeat the process. I love helping people, and have an awesome personality, and that's why I am in the Emergency Services. =D I just hope I get better soon because this is getting old. I been going through this since I was about 5years old when all of a sudden I was sleeping and woke up crying because I thought I was going to stop swallowing. I was picked on most through school because I was very nervous all the time. My voice would get high pitched around people when I made conversation because I was so nervous. When I got into high school I passed out 7 times in a two week period and dropped out. I forced myself to get my GED at least. I didn't want to give up. =D Life has been hard, but I do have my good times. This seems like a cool forum I hope I get to know you all. =D
My name is Cody. I was very lucky... (sarcasm) and have been suffering from Social Anxiety, OCD, Bi Polar, Panic Attacks, you name it... since I was just a little guy. Same days I can't leave my room. I am afraid to do many things. Some days I feel great and do what I love best. I am a fire fighter (just a volunteer for now) but when I do feel good I hang out at the station. I am going the Police route so I want to get better before I am 21. I have been on SO many meds and they did nothing for me. Right now I am on Luvox and all it does is give me nightmares and makes me paranoid. I have major mood swings. None of it is violent. It sucks though, one minute I will be really happy, then I will feel sick and depressed and sad and lonely. It goes back and forth non stop. For about 3 months now I sleep all day and then do my stuff at night. I usually sleep for about 15 hours, then am up for about 3 and repeat the process. I love helping people, and have an awesome personality, and that's why I am in the Emergency Services. =D I just hope I get better soon because this is getting old. I been going through this since I was about 5years old when all of a sudden I was sleeping and woke up crying because I thought I was going to stop swallowing. I was picked on most through school because I was very nervous all the time. My voice would get high pitched around people when I made conversation because I was so nervous. When I got into high school I passed out 7 times in a two week period and dropped out. I forced myself to get my GED at least. I didn't want to give up. =D Life has been hard, but I do have my good times. This seems like a cool forum I hope I get to know you all. =D