royalflush408
11-24-2009, 05:05 PM
Hi guys
I am new to this site and I am really glad I found it! I really don't know which disorder I have, and I hope that this site can help me because it's really putting a great deal or negative effect in my life.
Let me first introduce myself. I am 21 year old male from California. For someone my age, I consider myself successful and very mature. I have my own business, own a car (all paid by myself), pay my own bills, I support my parents, etc.... In other words, I am very independent 21 year old male. I am healthy, I exercise/go to the gym regularly, I can be an extrovert and be the life of the party, but can also be very introvert at times as well. I'm a good at conversation, whatever the topic may be, but also a great listener.
For years and years I have been trying not to admit that I have any disorder, but it seems to get worse and worse and it's taking a toll in my life.
I am not sure what type of disorder I have, all I know is that I have one.
So here is the problem. It seems like when I am in public by myself (sometimes even when I'm with someone) I tend to get really nervous, my face turns red, I get hot flashes, my vision gets blurry, I sweaty, I shake, and my mouth dries up... especially if it's an enviroment I'm not used to... Even though there really isn't anything serious happening around me.... I always feel like someone is looking at me and judging me, monitoring every movement I make. Especially when I hear someone laughing or giggling... I feel like they are laughing at me, even though I know for a fact that they are not... But my head is telling me that they are.
For example, the other night I was at the post office. I was just standing in line and everything was fine. Until about 10 minutes later (the line wasn't long, but there was only 1 person working as the cashier).... I heard someone talking and laughing behind me. I started to think that they were laughing at me. I started to get hot flashes, my face/ears/cheeks got red.. I got so hot and I started sweating... It's winter time and it was really cold, but I was sweating for no reason. I looked really stupid. Imagine winter time, it's cold and someone got red and started sweating for no reason. Then I thought about what was happening to me and that made the situation worse. I got redder, hotter and I started sweating bullets. Also, seeing others looking at me while under attack just makes the situation much worse!
This also happens when I am in grocery lines... Getting a coffee at starbucks... Or falling in line in the bank...
I try to block the thought with "happy" memories. I sometimes even imagine myself standing in snow naked just to try and trick my brain that I am cold so I don't sweat...
This is really bring a huge chunk of negativity in my life. I hope someone can help or give some advise.
Thanks for reading!
I am new to this site and I am really glad I found it! I really don't know which disorder I have, and I hope that this site can help me because it's really putting a great deal or negative effect in my life.
Let me first introduce myself. I am 21 year old male from California. For someone my age, I consider myself successful and very mature. I have my own business, own a car (all paid by myself), pay my own bills, I support my parents, etc.... In other words, I am very independent 21 year old male. I am healthy, I exercise/go to the gym regularly, I can be an extrovert and be the life of the party, but can also be very introvert at times as well. I'm a good at conversation, whatever the topic may be, but also a great listener.
For years and years I have been trying not to admit that I have any disorder, but it seems to get worse and worse and it's taking a toll in my life.
I am not sure what type of disorder I have, all I know is that I have one.
So here is the problem. It seems like when I am in public by myself (sometimes even when I'm with someone) I tend to get really nervous, my face turns red, I get hot flashes, my vision gets blurry, I sweaty, I shake, and my mouth dries up... especially if it's an enviroment I'm not used to... Even though there really isn't anything serious happening around me.... I always feel like someone is looking at me and judging me, monitoring every movement I make. Especially when I hear someone laughing or giggling... I feel like they are laughing at me, even though I know for a fact that they are not... But my head is telling me that they are.
For example, the other night I was at the post office. I was just standing in line and everything was fine. Until about 10 minutes later (the line wasn't long, but there was only 1 person working as the cashier).... I heard someone talking and laughing behind me. I started to think that they were laughing at me. I started to get hot flashes, my face/ears/cheeks got red.. I got so hot and I started sweating... It's winter time and it was really cold, but I was sweating for no reason. I looked really stupid. Imagine winter time, it's cold and someone got red and started sweating for no reason. Then I thought about what was happening to me and that made the situation worse. I got redder, hotter and I started sweating bullets. Also, seeing others looking at me while under attack just makes the situation much worse!
This also happens when I am in grocery lines... Getting a coffee at starbucks... Or falling in line in the bank...
I try to block the thought with "happy" memories. I sometimes even imagine myself standing in snow naked just to try and trick my brain that I am cold so I don't sweat...
This is really bring a huge chunk of negativity in my life. I hope someone can help or give some advise.
Thanks for reading!