damaralenoire
11-15-2009, 06:40 AM
Ok, I am fairly new to this site. And without trying to scare people off from replying to me (Which is the last thing I want) I am going to try and explain as briefly as possible my problem.
My name is Pamela, I am 28 years old from Wales. Back in 2001 the year of when my mother died I went to Univeristy in West Wales, to try and make a life for myself, I only lasted a year (If that) due to the new lifestyle of mingling with people and living with strangers etc. However5 months later, i realised I could not stay back at home either because one thing is I have never got on with my family. I love my education, I loved being in Band Camp, I enjoyed sitting down reading about different cultures, Iw ent to the theatre and attended concerts. no one in my family was like that, they are content with staying in watching tv and eating a pizza every night. ANYWAY, because of this i reapplied to a different Uni(In West Yokshire) I was accepted and move there within 2 weeks of being accepted. It was the furthest I has been away from home but the Uni was in the heart of the countryside and was only a few hundred people who attended. I managed to stay there the three years but a burglary at the house which i shared with two great guys i met at my course in uni meant that I did not get my degree as I could not submit my work in an end of year exhibition. this bummed me out and afraid of what the family would think of me (Me being a laughign stock and a loser) I stay in west Yorskhire after uni and tried to work to earn as much as poss, only trouble is, the two guys i lived with moved back to London. So i was on my own, Not only was I miles away from home but now living alone. This I believe had an effect on my mentally as I was aware I knew no one, my neighbours were foreign and did not speak english and my asthma was playing up chronic one night i had to call an ambulance in which the paramedics struggled to get into my house. After the trip to hospital I realised i was becoming more and more anxious worried if somethign else health wise would happen and no one would know. Dec 2005 I went home for Christmas by which time the relationship between me and family had improved (Obviously because i was living away and that we were not getting on each otehrs nerves) Dec 26th I went back to West Yorkshire and packed my house up Dec 29th moved back to WALES.
When in WALES, I pretty much found work straight away doing what I studied at UNI, this work meant travelling arund the uk for 3 month periods at a time 3 times a year which was perfect as once again living at home nerves being touched between me and the family, this job meant i was touring with people and still had hotel rooms to myself for privacy and would be long away from home enough to stay in good tune with the family and yet not to long away to get home sick. I was the only woman working with this company and times were getting tuff, Some of teh men did not want a woman in their space and so workplace bullying began. Dec 2007 I was sacked for a made up reason.
2 Months later found work for an electronics company who sold specialist equipment to contractors and the public. after a month I figured i could afford a flat of my own in the city centre to rent only 10 miles from family home but far away enough to have independance again. 4 months into the job, the manager was replaced by a guy who knew nothing about electronics but apparently had good managerial skills. Again i was in a job where i was the only woman in a male dominated workforce. When the new manager started thats when th problems started. He would call me off my breaks so i could explain stuff to customers cos he couldn't. He kept adding more and more work on me because he couldn't do it, he kept me behind late after work constantly because he would mess up with the cashing up and i had towitness him counting money etc. This started to depress me, and these problems on top of the lonely feeling of going back to an empty flat, I fell ill where i overdosed and had to take a week off work. During this week i wrote a letter to head office, BUT i was made out to be a troublemaker and that I was apparently the one who could not handle being in the workforce. For this i was given a final warning straight away. this in turn led me to become more angry and unwilling to cooperate, til finally one day, I first assaulted the Asistant mnager and then marched into the Managers office and threatened to kill him, Only when i had him pinned against wall I realised what i was doing and fleed . I ran back to my flat and stayed inside for 3 weeks plotting what i should do next in life. I cracked up basically and after issues with landlady I did a moonlight flit and moved back to family home where health problems started
CHEST PAINS, ABDOMINAL PAINS, LEG PAINS, ON ONE OCCASION I HAD A DVT WHICH I USED INJECTIONS TO CLEAR AND WAS ON WARFRIN, STARTED TO DEVELOP BACK PROBLEMS THEN DIAGNOSED WITH DEGENRATIVE DISC DISEASE OF THE SPINE. THEN I STARTED GETTING CONSTANTLY LIGHT HEADED, I HAVE A BLOCKED FEELING AT BACK OF NOSE AND THROAT, FEELINGS OF CHEST BEING CRUSHED ALL THE TIME, SHARP PAINS IN MY BACK, COUGHING CONSTANTLY, BLURRED VISION, FEELING SICK, HEAVY CHEST AT NIGHT WHEN TRYING TO SLEEP, CONSTANT FEAR OF DYING IN MY SLEEP, LACK OF SLEEP, SORE THROAT, SHAKING, PALPATATIONS, PAIN IN THROAT WHERE THE PULSE IS, DIFFICULTY IN SWALLOWING AND LACK OF CONCENTRATION. BEEN TO DOCTORS 28 TIMES SINCE THE START OF YEAR AND 19 APPOINTMENTS.
ECG FINE, HEART TRACE FINE, CAMERA DOWN THRAOT NO PROBLEMS ACCEPT LOTS OF ACID WHICH I AM ON TABLETS FOR, CAMERA UP NOSE NO PROBLEMS, CHEST SCANS ALL CLEAR, ECHOCARDIOGRAM CLEAR, BLOODS FINE
. Doctors say its depression and put me on increasing dose on Antidepressants now on the strongest of this tablets after failing to have any effects from drugs like Citalapram and Venlafaxine.
SO WHat i like to ask is anyone else have these health problems and is it simply stress. Why wont doctor help me for stress. Is it severe
My name is Pamela, I am 28 years old from Wales. Back in 2001 the year of when my mother died I went to Univeristy in West Wales, to try and make a life for myself, I only lasted a year (If that) due to the new lifestyle of mingling with people and living with strangers etc. However5 months later, i realised I could not stay back at home either because one thing is I have never got on with my family. I love my education, I loved being in Band Camp, I enjoyed sitting down reading about different cultures, Iw ent to the theatre and attended concerts. no one in my family was like that, they are content with staying in watching tv and eating a pizza every night. ANYWAY, because of this i reapplied to a different Uni(In West Yokshire) I was accepted and move there within 2 weeks of being accepted. It was the furthest I has been away from home but the Uni was in the heart of the countryside and was only a few hundred people who attended. I managed to stay there the three years but a burglary at the house which i shared with two great guys i met at my course in uni meant that I did not get my degree as I could not submit my work in an end of year exhibition. this bummed me out and afraid of what the family would think of me (Me being a laughign stock and a loser) I stay in west Yorskhire after uni and tried to work to earn as much as poss, only trouble is, the two guys i lived with moved back to London. So i was on my own, Not only was I miles away from home but now living alone. This I believe had an effect on my mentally as I was aware I knew no one, my neighbours were foreign and did not speak english and my asthma was playing up chronic one night i had to call an ambulance in which the paramedics struggled to get into my house. After the trip to hospital I realised i was becoming more and more anxious worried if somethign else health wise would happen and no one would know. Dec 2005 I went home for Christmas by which time the relationship between me and family had improved (Obviously because i was living away and that we were not getting on each otehrs nerves) Dec 26th I went back to West Yorkshire and packed my house up Dec 29th moved back to WALES.
When in WALES, I pretty much found work straight away doing what I studied at UNI, this work meant travelling arund the uk for 3 month periods at a time 3 times a year which was perfect as once again living at home nerves being touched between me and the family, this job meant i was touring with people and still had hotel rooms to myself for privacy and would be long away from home enough to stay in good tune with the family and yet not to long away to get home sick. I was the only woman working with this company and times were getting tuff, Some of teh men did not want a woman in their space and so workplace bullying began. Dec 2007 I was sacked for a made up reason.
2 Months later found work for an electronics company who sold specialist equipment to contractors and the public. after a month I figured i could afford a flat of my own in the city centre to rent only 10 miles from family home but far away enough to have independance again. 4 months into the job, the manager was replaced by a guy who knew nothing about electronics but apparently had good managerial skills. Again i was in a job where i was the only woman in a male dominated workforce. When the new manager started thats when th problems started. He would call me off my breaks so i could explain stuff to customers cos he couldn't. He kept adding more and more work on me because he couldn't do it, he kept me behind late after work constantly because he would mess up with the cashing up and i had towitness him counting money etc. This started to depress me, and these problems on top of the lonely feeling of going back to an empty flat, I fell ill where i overdosed and had to take a week off work. During this week i wrote a letter to head office, BUT i was made out to be a troublemaker and that I was apparently the one who could not handle being in the workforce. For this i was given a final warning straight away. this in turn led me to become more angry and unwilling to cooperate, til finally one day, I first assaulted the Asistant mnager and then marched into the Managers office and threatened to kill him, Only when i had him pinned against wall I realised what i was doing and fleed . I ran back to my flat and stayed inside for 3 weeks plotting what i should do next in life. I cracked up basically and after issues with landlady I did a moonlight flit and moved back to family home where health problems started
CHEST PAINS, ABDOMINAL PAINS, LEG PAINS, ON ONE OCCASION I HAD A DVT WHICH I USED INJECTIONS TO CLEAR AND WAS ON WARFRIN, STARTED TO DEVELOP BACK PROBLEMS THEN DIAGNOSED WITH DEGENRATIVE DISC DISEASE OF THE SPINE. THEN I STARTED GETTING CONSTANTLY LIGHT HEADED, I HAVE A BLOCKED FEELING AT BACK OF NOSE AND THROAT, FEELINGS OF CHEST BEING CRUSHED ALL THE TIME, SHARP PAINS IN MY BACK, COUGHING CONSTANTLY, BLURRED VISION, FEELING SICK, HEAVY CHEST AT NIGHT WHEN TRYING TO SLEEP, CONSTANT FEAR OF DYING IN MY SLEEP, LACK OF SLEEP, SORE THROAT, SHAKING, PALPATATIONS, PAIN IN THROAT WHERE THE PULSE IS, DIFFICULTY IN SWALLOWING AND LACK OF CONCENTRATION. BEEN TO DOCTORS 28 TIMES SINCE THE START OF YEAR AND 19 APPOINTMENTS.
ECG FINE, HEART TRACE FINE, CAMERA DOWN THRAOT NO PROBLEMS ACCEPT LOTS OF ACID WHICH I AM ON TABLETS FOR, CAMERA UP NOSE NO PROBLEMS, CHEST SCANS ALL CLEAR, ECHOCARDIOGRAM CLEAR, BLOODS FINE
. Doctors say its depression and put me on increasing dose on Antidepressants now on the strongest of this tablets after failing to have any effects from drugs like Citalapram and Venlafaxine.
SO WHat i like to ask is anyone else have these health problems and is it simply stress. Why wont doctor help me for stress. Is it severe