pendlebear
09-16-2009, 09:01 AM
I am fairly new here. About 3 months ago two stray dogs found their way to our house which is way out in the country. Obviously someone had abandoned them. They were about 2-3 years old and the female was pregnant. We fed the dogs, birthed the puppies (7 of them) and cared for them, so of course we got attached to them, even though I am allergic. Long story short, the male attacked the female one day and drew blood so we had to have animal control take him, the puppies were adopted. We just had the female, who was a sweet, loving dog, but very traumatized from whoever abandoned her. Slowly she began to develop even more anxiety and wouldn't let us leave the house, then she began chewing on wood, doorframes, etc., then our bushes & shrubs. I know she was anxious - can you see where this is going? Her anxiety and destructive behavior pushed me over the edge and we had to call animal control again. If we could have gotten her to walk on a leash we could have gotten her to a no-kill shelter, but she was terrified of the leash and would not walk. We tried everything. I know in my heart that we did everything for these dogs, I called, emailed, posted notices, etc., but I am still beating myself up for having her taken to the shelter. My anxiety has skyrocketed and so has my depression, I feel like I am going to have a breakdown, I am so riddled with guilt. I pray that God will forgive me. Need advice, I feel like I'm going under. :cry: