okeydokey
08-06-2009, 05:15 AM
I am terrified of antidepressants although I have taken them in the past and they have helped, I am definetly on a loop when it comes to taking the pills/ feeling better / stop taking them and relapse. However I have not been on any for a number of years. I have social anxiety but recently it is more the depression that I feel, I feel I have had the anxiety so long it has finally zapped the spirit in me down. I have good parts of the day but I feel very mad at myself that I have gotten to this point. I am living overseas right now and my boyfriend knows some of my conditgion but doesn't understand it, he supports me just we don't speak about it because I think it is kinda like if its not talked about its not there, I also don't feel like telling him everyday updates on how I feel for it makes me feel like I am this damaged person. I know I am this strong confident person inside I am jsut buried under this weight at the moment, I was prescribed some effexor awhole ago and am almost ready to take it, I want to take it at bed so I can skip any wierd feelings it might bring, any recommendations? thanks