soilworker12
05-02-2009, 04:15 PM
Hello everyone, my name is Dustin and im 23 yrs. old.
I was first told that I may have anxiety disorder when I was around 15-16. I was prescribed paxil and clonazepam. I was also abusing a LOT of illegal drugs and didnt take the anxiety seriously. So I basically used drugs as a crutch instead of taking the prescribed medicines.
By 18 I had quit doing everything EXCEPT smoking marijuana. My anxiety was still there but smoking weed helped a lot.
When I was 20 I began my first serious relationship with a girl. We were together from the time I was 20 up until about 5 months ago. This girl cheated on me several times, was an emotional wreck, turned out to have a body image/eating disorder, and was very emotionally abusive to me. I loved and cared for her through the entire almost 3 years we were together no matter what horrible things she did to me. I became more and more anxious every day and unhappy. I gained lots of weight and spent all my time worrying about her and the state of our relationship. All the while, my anxiety was getting worse and worse and worse and worse.
5 months ago I broke up with her and stopped smoking pot. I needed and wanted to get rid of both of them for once and for all, in efforts to live a happy and healthy life and get a grip on my anxiety.
I figured that in due time, without the stress of the relationship, and being sober, the anxiety would start to get a little better. I was wrong. Over the past 5 months its gotten so bad that its interfering with my daily life. Ive had to miss entire days of work due to non stop panic attacks. SO, as a result of all this, about 5 weeks ago I went to the doctor. He told me that he definatly thinks I have anxiety disorder and prescribed me 20mg pills of Paxil. Ive been taking them exactly as prescribed and even started to feel a little better up until 2 weeks ago.
for the past 2 weeks ive been getting real anxious all over again and this time, I am getting heart palpitations everyday. There is no real rhyme or reason to them.. it seems like they even happen when Im not particularly stressed or thinking about anything. I am now at a point of terror. Im so scared I cant even take it. (I have a follow up appointment in a week with my dr for the paxil and ill be telling him about the heart flutters on that day) My question to all of you is....
Can ANYONE tell me if the heart palpitations are a normal symptom of anxiety disorder? Has anyone in this forum had this experience or is currently dealing with this? If so PLEASE tell me ur story.. shed some light on this for me. Ive done some research on the internet (which has made me more scared than before) It does seem that medical websites do cite heart palpitations as a symptom of anxiety and stress disorder. (they also list a million horrific physical problems that could cause them too which isnt helping)
Again im getting the palpitations a few times a day randomly... sometimes when im anxious and sometimes even when im not....
My dr has done an ecg which came back fine, my blood pressure has been normal at most visists in the past couple months.. except a few times it was high but the dr said it was probably because of the anxiety, and ive had my cholesteral checked and it came back perfect (even though im out of shape). he also hasnt heard anything abnormal when he listens to me heart (again i havent spoken to my doctor about the fluttering yet cuz it just started 2 weeks ago but i will be in a week on my visit.)
PLEASE, if ANY of you out there have had this happen to them can u help me out? Let me know how your dealing with it ..... is the heart fluttering im experiencing normal as part of anxiety disorder?? Im ready to get my life together and live healthy and happy ( i even bought a tredmill to do some excercise) but because of the worrying and the now heart palps I am at a stand still.....
-Dustin (scared out of my mind)
I was first told that I may have anxiety disorder when I was around 15-16. I was prescribed paxil and clonazepam. I was also abusing a LOT of illegal drugs and didnt take the anxiety seriously. So I basically used drugs as a crutch instead of taking the prescribed medicines.
By 18 I had quit doing everything EXCEPT smoking marijuana. My anxiety was still there but smoking weed helped a lot.
When I was 20 I began my first serious relationship with a girl. We were together from the time I was 20 up until about 5 months ago. This girl cheated on me several times, was an emotional wreck, turned out to have a body image/eating disorder, and was very emotionally abusive to me. I loved and cared for her through the entire almost 3 years we were together no matter what horrible things she did to me. I became more and more anxious every day and unhappy. I gained lots of weight and spent all my time worrying about her and the state of our relationship. All the while, my anxiety was getting worse and worse and worse and worse.
5 months ago I broke up with her and stopped smoking pot. I needed and wanted to get rid of both of them for once and for all, in efforts to live a happy and healthy life and get a grip on my anxiety.
I figured that in due time, without the stress of the relationship, and being sober, the anxiety would start to get a little better. I was wrong. Over the past 5 months its gotten so bad that its interfering with my daily life. Ive had to miss entire days of work due to non stop panic attacks. SO, as a result of all this, about 5 weeks ago I went to the doctor. He told me that he definatly thinks I have anxiety disorder and prescribed me 20mg pills of Paxil. Ive been taking them exactly as prescribed and even started to feel a little better up until 2 weeks ago.
for the past 2 weeks ive been getting real anxious all over again and this time, I am getting heart palpitations everyday. There is no real rhyme or reason to them.. it seems like they even happen when Im not particularly stressed or thinking about anything. I am now at a point of terror. Im so scared I cant even take it. (I have a follow up appointment in a week with my dr for the paxil and ill be telling him about the heart flutters on that day) My question to all of you is....
Can ANYONE tell me if the heart palpitations are a normal symptom of anxiety disorder? Has anyone in this forum had this experience or is currently dealing with this? If so PLEASE tell me ur story.. shed some light on this for me. Ive done some research on the internet (which has made me more scared than before) It does seem that medical websites do cite heart palpitations as a symptom of anxiety and stress disorder. (they also list a million horrific physical problems that could cause them too which isnt helping)
Again im getting the palpitations a few times a day randomly... sometimes when im anxious and sometimes even when im not....
My dr has done an ecg which came back fine, my blood pressure has been normal at most visists in the past couple months.. except a few times it was high but the dr said it was probably because of the anxiety, and ive had my cholesteral checked and it came back perfect (even though im out of shape). he also hasnt heard anything abnormal when he listens to me heart (again i havent spoken to my doctor about the fluttering yet cuz it just started 2 weeks ago but i will be in a week on my visit.)
PLEASE, if ANY of you out there have had this happen to them can u help me out? Let me know how your dealing with it ..... is the heart fluttering im experiencing normal as part of anxiety disorder?? Im ready to get my life together and live healthy and happy ( i even bought a tredmill to do some excercise) but because of the worrying and the now heart palps I am at a stand still.....
-Dustin (scared out of my mind)