Kraggy
04-22-2009, 01:36 AM
Hello everyone,
I just joined, and I would like to share what my problems are..
My number one Anxiety is the Disease Cancer.
The way it all started where under-skin lumps, Which my mother explained where Lymph Nodes. I quickly hopped on the good ol' net and there it was...
Underskin Lumps, Cancer...
Since then I haven't been the same, I went from a Allways smiling, seemingly fearless comedian to a Frightened Depressed person who spends all of his free time in fear, inspecting himself & self-diagnosing.
Now I am currently scared to death, I felt alot of hard-underskin lymps in both sides of my groin area. They feel exactly as the internet descripes lymph-nodes with cancer cells that originated from another version of cancer.
Unfortionatly I have not been able to find any positive things that managed to calm me down, that would explain those lumps that I feel. everywere I go...Its cancer.
I am a member of several Anxiety forums, aswell as some about Cancer. But still I feel an urge of finding more places, in the hope of somebody saying that magic line "I have exactly the same problem, I felt the hard-nodes aswell and the doctor turned me inside out and said it was fine!"
Later today I have an appointment to have it checked out, but im scared to death that I will get to hear the line that will probably predict the beginning of the end for me... :cry:
This is my story, and it has been going like that for the past 3 month's, Before I did not understand how people could be afraid..But now I have build up alot of respect of people who go through everyday life feeling this terrified, some people who have it many years, and it almost angers me that I am acting like this even though I've only got it for such a short time...
Ah well..
Lets hope I get good news later..
Kind Regards,
Kraggy..
I just joined, and I would like to share what my problems are..
My number one Anxiety is the Disease Cancer.
The way it all started where under-skin lumps, Which my mother explained where Lymph Nodes. I quickly hopped on the good ol' net and there it was...
Underskin Lumps, Cancer...
Since then I haven't been the same, I went from a Allways smiling, seemingly fearless comedian to a Frightened Depressed person who spends all of his free time in fear, inspecting himself & self-diagnosing.
Now I am currently scared to death, I felt alot of hard-underskin lymps in both sides of my groin area. They feel exactly as the internet descripes lymph-nodes with cancer cells that originated from another version of cancer.
Unfortionatly I have not been able to find any positive things that managed to calm me down, that would explain those lumps that I feel. everywere I go...Its cancer.
I am a member of several Anxiety forums, aswell as some about Cancer. But still I feel an urge of finding more places, in the hope of somebody saying that magic line "I have exactly the same problem, I felt the hard-nodes aswell and the doctor turned me inside out and said it was fine!"
Later today I have an appointment to have it checked out, but im scared to death that I will get to hear the line that will probably predict the beginning of the end for me... :cry:
This is my story, and it has been going like that for the past 3 month's, Before I did not understand how people could be afraid..But now I have build up alot of respect of people who go through everyday life feeling this terrified, some people who have it many years, and it almost angers me that I am acting like this even though I've only got it for such a short time...
Ah well..
Lets hope I get good news later..
Kind Regards,
Kraggy..