Digi
03-16-2009, 09:57 AM
Hi, my name is Kristy and I'm 20 years old. I've been having anxiety attacks off and on since I was 13 but they went undiagnosed until I was nearly 20. Since then, I've tried taking Citalopram as well as Lexapro. The first didn't work, it only gave me really weird nightmares and while I was still on it, I actually managed to remember about three or four a night. It also usually woke me up a few times as well so I stopped taking it.
Lexapro, on the other hand, worked quite well but made me really sick. Every time I'd start taking it again, I'd throw up within 5 hours of my first dose without fail.
My anxiety attacks have come back in full force so I'm trying to figure out a way to cope. I still have some Lexapro on me but I can't stand taking it. That first night and the following day...are just so effed up it's not funny. I almost always end up skipping class because of how messed up I am and I can't afford to do that right now.
Honestly, I'm not doing too hot at the moment. I haven't eaten in 24 hours because I keep throwing up and/or gagging. I don't have any motivation and cry pretty much every day. My boyfriend and I have had a lot of problems lately and we broke up for a while but then we got back together and now I'm terrified that he'll leave me again. There's also some little 17 year old running around trying to seduce him basically by crying to him and telling him she loves him (after meeting him online just a week ago...) and it makes me feel uncomfortable. When we got back together, I asked him, "So she's gone?" and he replied, "Yeah :) " but because I've been having anxiety attacks lately, I can't keep my mind from looping through all of these bad, "What if's..." I don't want him to think I'm mad or going back to being obsessive because I'm not, I feel the problem, this time, is the anxiety so I'm afraid to tell him just how bad it is right now. :(
Instead, I'm going to see a counselor on campus ASAP. But I'm worried about that, too, because I'm afraid of what my Dad will say if they put me on new meds. He'd find out because he's the one paying and he really doesn't understand everything I'm going through and he gets mad. :(
Sorry for the long, uh...intro... >.>
Lexapro, on the other hand, worked quite well but made me really sick. Every time I'd start taking it again, I'd throw up within 5 hours of my first dose without fail.
My anxiety attacks have come back in full force so I'm trying to figure out a way to cope. I still have some Lexapro on me but I can't stand taking it. That first night and the following day...are just so effed up it's not funny. I almost always end up skipping class because of how messed up I am and I can't afford to do that right now.
Honestly, I'm not doing too hot at the moment. I haven't eaten in 24 hours because I keep throwing up and/or gagging. I don't have any motivation and cry pretty much every day. My boyfriend and I have had a lot of problems lately and we broke up for a while but then we got back together and now I'm terrified that he'll leave me again. There's also some little 17 year old running around trying to seduce him basically by crying to him and telling him she loves him (after meeting him online just a week ago...) and it makes me feel uncomfortable. When we got back together, I asked him, "So she's gone?" and he replied, "Yeah :) " but because I've been having anxiety attacks lately, I can't keep my mind from looping through all of these bad, "What if's..." I don't want him to think I'm mad or going back to being obsessive because I'm not, I feel the problem, this time, is the anxiety so I'm afraid to tell him just how bad it is right now. :(
Instead, I'm going to see a counselor on campus ASAP. But I'm worried about that, too, because I'm afraid of what my Dad will say if they put me on new meds. He'd find out because he's the one paying and he really doesn't understand everything I'm going through and he gets mad. :(
Sorry for the long, uh...intro... >.>