My intro, and my anxiety story

[jamus9]

Hello, im James, im from Australia. Ive had a anxiety problem since i was about 18, im now 23. My anxiety that I am experiancing now is much different then it was at the beginning.

When I was 18 it was controlable with just breathing and psychological therapy. I was vomitting everyday for a while but i got under control and eventualy managed to recover. That was between 18 and 21 years old.

For just over a year I was just fine, but, as of december 2008 my anxiety came back much much more severe. Thinking of anything just makes the anxiety go very extreem, I want to get a job, and im going back to uni soon but I dont know how i will deal with it now.

This is not how i want to live, but its a very hopless situation, I need to recover to completely normal or I just dont want to live this life. Im currently taking esipram which made me worse twice over janurary, but then i got alot better. But now im under alot of stress and im going backwards again.

Im glad this forum exists because things seem less crazy seeing that there are other people in the same situation. I wish everyone the best for there lives and hope we all recover and can just be happy and normal.

[Hib9]

I understand your feelings completely. I feel like sometimes I feel normal, some days are worse than others. I do feel as though I am worrying a little inside at all times, but I can sometimes control it. But it's when the stress comes on (money, job, relationships, etc) that things get completely out of control, and I can't handle it.
Do you feel as though you have gotten worse over the years? I feel that way. I have not been on medication, but would maybe consider it.