MCM123
02-23-2009, 01:28 PM
Hello everyone,
I am 24 and have been dealing with my anxieties since I was in second grade. I have good months and bad months. I have a wonderful husband who tries to understand what I go through but has a hard time. My anxiety is mainly social. I have horrible panic attacks when there are to many people around. For some reason my head is always worried about what everyone is thinking. For some reason I feel everyone is judging or thinking things about me even though I know they have way better things to do. Then my anxiety kicks in and I panic. That is when I just want to go home. I have a very hard time making and keeping friends because of that. I feel I hold my husband and self back which stinks. I am here because I just want to spill it all out. I feel like my anxiety holds me back from the person I want to be and see. I come off as a very friendly outgoing person but I have a huge wall up because of my anxiety. I have tried different medications but I just want to be me with out them. Ya know. My anxiety happens everywhere from work to just a walk around the neighborhood. I have learned to control some of it but there are months where I feel like it is racing ahead of me. Anyways, it feels good to say that maybe hope someone here may understand. Thanks for reading.
I am 24 and have been dealing with my anxieties since I was in second grade. I have good months and bad months. I have a wonderful husband who tries to understand what I go through but has a hard time. My anxiety is mainly social. I have horrible panic attacks when there are to many people around. For some reason my head is always worried about what everyone is thinking. For some reason I feel everyone is judging or thinking things about me even though I know they have way better things to do. Then my anxiety kicks in and I panic. That is when I just want to go home. I have a very hard time making and keeping friends because of that. I feel I hold my husband and self back which stinks. I am here because I just want to spill it all out. I feel like my anxiety holds me back from the person I want to be and see. I come off as a very friendly outgoing person but I have a huge wall up because of my anxiety. I have tried different medications but I just want to be me with out them. Ya know. My anxiety happens everywhere from work to just a walk around the neighborhood. I have learned to control some of it but there are months where I feel like it is racing ahead of me. Anyways, it feels good to say that maybe hope someone here may understand. Thanks for reading.