Feel like anxiety is ruling my life!!!

[ArykaLinn]

Ugh! Hey everyone. I'm sure you're all (or most of you anyway) are as frustrated as I am. My name is Erica, I'm 21, I am a cocktail server and just signed up for college. I've been dealing with anxiety since my sophmore year in high school. The summer before my Senior year I developed agoraphobia and couldn't leave the house for about a year and a half until my mother kicked me out. It was the best thing she could have done for me, I may have just moved 1 minute down the street but having my own apartment was great. I soon kicked my agoraphobia and after time almost completely rid myself of anxiety. Well a few months ago it's been coming back, I just moved back in with my mom about a month or so ago b/c of money issues and it got worse than ever. I constantly feel like I'm dying. I'll try to go back to my old habits of meditation and "talking myself down" as I call it. But not a lot works. I can't wait to talk to some people who share the same issues as I do, and hopefully we can all help one another out.

I don't have social anxiety, I'm in a job where a ton of people come in, I'm very social and confident around people so unfortunately when I get anxiety again, it takes me from things that make me happy. Ugh this is so frustrating, lol. I'm having an attack now, which is how I find the site and why I'm babbling. Writing this is helping me take my mind off of it. Does anyone ever feel like even though they're breathing, their body just isn't getting the air? I can't even explain it. Sometimes its almost like I have to force myself to inhale. I'm done with the babbling, I'm going to try and get some sleep

[Capricorn548]

YESSS!! I totally know what you mean. I have been experiencing this for years, and my doctor has given me all kinds of inhalers. None of them work because I think it is friggin anxiety! This was the first forum I read, because it had no replies and I wouldn't want to be left unreplied like that lol. I am glad I did. I don't really know how to help you, because I am sort of in the same boat. I am super outgoing and friendly. No problems around people. But when I am going to sleep, I get the shakes and the breathing is how it started. I am so glad I am not alone, you have no idea!