JavaJoy01
01-24-2009, 04:55 PM
At first it seems minor but now it's almost daily. For me now I get the pounding fast heart beat and I get weak and tired. Sometimes I get the tingles. The rushing has gone and so has the electric shocks. I've only been on meds for a week so I have a long journey ahead of me.
The thing I dread most is the night time because I'm always awaken by the shaking. It's an internal bothersome shaking that I feel in my chest and stomach. It's there and I can feel it. I don't want to say shiver like being cold, it's a small continuous shaking. It goes away once I get out of bed. It's very uncomfortable and makes it hard for me to relax. I don't know if it's from coming off the xannax or from the anxiety.
I thought I was going to have a great day, a little anxious but tolerable. Then my husband wanted to see Marly and Me. I've been avoiding the movie due to the ending, but chose to go and close my eyes at the end. I was anxious throughout the whole movie and could not relax. I hid at the end but I still found myself sobbing uncontrollably (Hubby included). It relieved most of the tension I was feeling, although I still had the heart palpitations, red face and fast heart rate.
I've become obsessed with checking my pulse, I check it non stop. If I don't feel my pulse or my heat beat I freak out, if I do and it's hard and fast I freak out. I just want to be normal again.
I don't know what brought this on, it just came out of the blue. My mom thought maybe I was going into Para menopause (I'm going to be 35) and I got frightened which led to the anxiety.
The thing I dread most is the night time because I'm always awaken by the shaking. It's an internal bothersome shaking that I feel in my chest and stomach. It's there and I can feel it. I don't want to say shiver like being cold, it's a small continuous shaking. It goes away once I get out of bed. It's very uncomfortable and makes it hard for me to relax. I don't know if it's from coming off the xannax or from the anxiety.
I thought I was going to have a great day, a little anxious but tolerable. Then my husband wanted to see Marly and Me. I've been avoiding the movie due to the ending, but chose to go and close my eyes at the end. I was anxious throughout the whole movie and could not relax. I hid at the end but I still found myself sobbing uncontrollably (Hubby included). It relieved most of the tension I was feeling, although I still had the heart palpitations, red face and fast heart rate.
I've become obsessed with checking my pulse, I check it non stop. If I don't feel my pulse or my heat beat I freak out, if I do and it's hard and fast I freak out. I just want to be normal again.
I don't know what brought this on, it just came out of the blue. My mom thought maybe I was going into Para menopause (I'm going to be 35) and I got frightened which led to the anxiety.