bigfin
01-17-2009, 04:42 PM
hello.im suffering from an anxiety which is interfearing with everyday life and its getting me depressed.i suppose ive always been a little anxious but nothing that ever realy bothered me.it all realy started about ten years ago when i was 19 and started going out my girlfriend who im still with to this day.i used to get realy nervous when meeting up with her to go out and stuff.i used to be sick with nerves for some reason.it was very upsetting for me why i was so nervous.it was the aprehension of seeing her.it was crazy but that was the begining of the questioning of my own mind.it soon went on to not being able to go out for meals for fear of throwing up.it was so confusing for me and i wanted to break up with her to make this go away but i coudnt because i loved her and i wouldnt let this spoil my life.after a while i began to control all this suff and managed a care free life together realy.we then tried for a baby nearly 4 years ago and were successfull and she gave birth to our beautifull son who is the center of our world in april 2005.
having our new son was great but very hard at the same time.we found it very demanding as do every new parents.we started to argue alot more with the tiredness and stuff but we got on with it.when he was three i was finding it very hard to stay in the relationship due to constant arguing.i was finding it to be the hardest thing to have to contemplate leaving my family as i was lucky enough to be brought up with both loving parents so it went against everything that i believed in to leave my son.to cut a long story short i ended up with a bought of depression and massive anxiety over this.it was awfull.i thought i had lost.it felt like all my surroundings were new.the place i grew up and everything i new was now strange.this for me was the most scary.it did go away but we went for a weekend in edinburgh so we had a drink and stuff.the day we came home i had a hangover which made my anxiety rocket.the drive home was horrible.that strange feeling had come back and my heart sank.when we got home our house felt strange which made me feel wierd and anxious.now nearly 2 years later that weekend has left me with a kind of phobia of going to new places and weekends away from home incase those strange feelings come back.can anyone relate to this.thanks.ps.sorry this was a bit long.
having our new son was great but very hard at the same time.we found it very demanding as do every new parents.we started to argue alot more with the tiredness and stuff but we got on with it.when he was three i was finding it very hard to stay in the relationship due to constant arguing.i was finding it to be the hardest thing to have to contemplate leaving my family as i was lucky enough to be brought up with both loving parents so it went against everything that i believed in to leave my son.to cut a long story short i ended up with a bought of depression and massive anxiety over this.it was awfull.i thought i had lost.it felt like all my surroundings were new.the place i grew up and everything i new was now strange.this for me was the most scary.it did go away but we went for a weekend in edinburgh so we had a drink and stuff.the day we came home i had a hangover which made my anxiety rocket.the drive home was horrible.that strange feeling had come back and my heart sank.when we got home our house felt strange which made me feel wierd and anxious.now nearly 2 years later that weekend has left me with a kind of phobia of going to new places and weekends away from home incase those strange feelings come back.can anyone relate to this.thanks.ps.sorry this was a bit long.