hannesami
01-09-2009, 05:43 AM
In every aspect of life, I seem hapy , v successful, beautiful kids, etc. But I can't lead this double life anymore. I have been doing this for 25 years. I am now 40.
I have been to so many doctors, had so many tests, spent so much money, etc. I don't tell anyone that I do things. My wife, my parents, my friends. No one knows.
It has now got to the stage that worrying about diseases and the future is just un-tenable. I literally can't stop the worrying and every new symptom just sets me on a new path of worry. Usually cancer, ms, etc.
Currently it is an earache and shoulder pain and I am obsessed with lung cancer as I smoked a lot.
I have tried every medication under the sun, self medicated, counselling, etc. Everything.
Will it ever end.
I have been to so many doctors, had so many tests, spent so much money, etc. I don't tell anyone that I do things. My wife, my parents, my friends. No one knows.
It has now got to the stage that worrying about diseases and the future is just un-tenable. I literally can't stop the worrying and every new symptom just sets me on a new path of worry. Usually cancer, ms, etc.
Currently it is an earache and shoulder pain and I am obsessed with lung cancer as I smoked a lot.
I have tried every medication under the sun, self medicated, counselling, etc. Everything.
Will it ever end.