LosFrida
12-07-2008, 12:50 AM
I've lived with Anxiety for as long as I can remember. As a child there was never a situation too small to induce anxiety. For example, if my parents went to the store and were a few minutes late, in my mind it wasn't because perhaps they'd run into traffic or something. No, they were late because the store had been robbed, they had been shot and were dying this very moment.
The anxiety itself didn't really bother me (meaning I lived with it and dealt with it on my own). This week, however, it sent me to the ER. I was having a disagreement with a friend and, via e-mail, we were working to resolve it. I sent her my perspective and awaited her reply. When I saw she had replied (prior to reading) my heart rate went insane. I read the message (we resolved). 5 minutes later, however, I experienced severe chest pain (as in 10 on a 1 to 10 scale). Because I am also in recovery for Anorexia I was terrified I was having a heart attack. All tests cam back normal, as I knew it would (the pain itself lasted around 40 minutes).
I had never experienced an anxiety attack on that level and am afraid of it happening again. Again, this attack was over an e-mail. An unread one at that. I believe that if I can work on identifying my anxiety triggers and work at being more mindful of my body in triggering scenarios I can avoid it.
In closing I'm hoping to find some helpful information and also connecting with people. Thank you for reading.
The anxiety itself didn't really bother me (meaning I lived with it and dealt with it on my own). This week, however, it sent me to the ER. I was having a disagreement with a friend and, via e-mail, we were working to resolve it. I sent her my perspective and awaited her reply. When I saw she had replied (prior to reading) my heart rate went insane. I read the message (we resolved). 5 minutes later, however, I experienced severe chest pain (as in 10 on a 1 to 10 scale). Because I am also in recovery for Anorexia I was terrified I was having a heart attack. All tests cam back normal, as I knew it would (the pain itself lasted around 40 minutes).
I had never experienced an anxiety attack on that level and am afraid of it happening again. Again, this attack was over an e-mail. An unread one at that. I believe that if I can work on identifying my anxiety triggers and work at being more mindful of my body in triggering scenarios I can avoid it.
In closing I'm hoping to find some helpful information and also connecting with people. Thank you for reading.