Im-Suffering
10-19-2017, 07:50 AM
First of all let me salute you all. You are the true warriors, the brave, courageous, and I honor your path. It was never meant to be a cakewalk, you see, but a learning experience.
Some of you are not ready, willing, able to hear today, and to you I say be patient, your time will come. To all the rest I offer the following. We, most of us, experience GAD, not just the occasional anxiety or nervousness of say, a big test, or whatnot, but a daily struggle on many levels, emotionally and physiologically.
I say, then whatever point you may be in your journey, old or young, that no amount of medicine, supplements, self talk (CBT), or wishful thinking will bring you back into what we will call 'balance'. And especially, will not return you to your state 'pre' anxiety, where you felt at ease, so to speak, or as one would say, 'I feel like myself'. The truth is, 'myself' is evolving, you see, change is good, as that self grows.
Anxiety is an inner condition, a landscape of turmoil. But that landscape is psychological first, and colored, painted, by either experience, environment, parenting, and yes, somewhat DNA coding. You came into life to learn, stubborn or not, and learn you will, so some 'coding' was in place before you were even born. Your looks, your thoughts have been to an extent crafted by spirit and thrown into an environment conducive for needed lessons. How fast you learn can be alike to a vice grip, it will tighten and cause more confusion, suffering, meant to point out both the problem and solution.
Anxiety has its foundation in the spiritual world, where at some point one has lost his or her connection with feeling, rather the recognition of what it is like to feel, and above all, what it is like for others to feel. That connection with earth, your peers we will call empathy, compassion, to put yourself in anothers shoes, to expect in proportion to what you give. To receive in like to what you give, and to get, what you give. There is an anger underlying anxiety as oftentimes the expectations are that you cannot have what you want, even if you try and force them. Life is simply life, life is neutral, colored by a mass of people as an artist paints his emotions onto canvas.
Anxiety cannot be overcome by a set of instructions, in a book, or in one way or another written by another. Anxiety is personal to each of you, and although it would seem you have symptoms in common, the cause is your own and relevant to your stage of personal, psychological, and more importantly spiritual growth.
When the spirit is disconnected from the physical, because it is drowned out by the fantastic illusions of the material world, and when your thoughts become self centered above all.. When you lose the connection with your brothers and sisters - in a narcissistic sense - when you cannot feel, and validate your own feelings.. Then you have sacrificed the beauty in life, the world, the people and creatures, and I say sacrifice because you become shut out of anything and anyone lovely.. any love .. and as such any offered love would slip past unnoticed.
You have all had trauma in your past. You have all been brainwashed into a form of social engineering, a scheme, you have all been at the mercy of misguided and conflicted parents, you have all seen and heard scary things and become afraid of certain conditions. And to an extent of what we will call abuse, to the extent of this belief system you have, to the extent of this disconnection with empathy... This is the road ahead, this is the fear in the way, these are the hurdles toward a self that you cannot even imagine. If you suffer now, well, the old self is not what you want. This hard work is meant to craft and finely tune a new self, as it was said, you cannot put old wine in a new wine cloth (bag), as it would burst. You must be ready to accept the new wine.
Life is a spiritual journey, a means to an end, so to speak. The severed connections between the mind and spirit whatever they may be, are very personal, and individual to each of you. So there is not only one way. You must make your own way, you see, in this type of healing there would be no one against the other, no need for war or any crime of any sort. Through trauma, loss of love, abuse, abandonment, or simply ignorance, stupidity, you have all in one way or another turned a blind eye, and in the grand scheme, you see, you must open your eyes.
I am not suggesting you throw away your meds, be kind to yourself, suffering is never mandatory, you were not born evil or sinful, but what I am suggesting is you learn to feel again. Anxiety is only in your life because you shut down feeling, anxiety is a feeling. To some anxiety is their only way to feel. You must feel. Or the pot would explode. In some terms, anxiety is healthy, meant to lead you back to equilibrium. When spirit is disassociated, or closed off due to emotional pain, you receive no benefit from its still calmness, that speaks, everything is ok. You get lost in a world of turmoil, physically, trusting outer conditions rather than your own intuitive-ness. In essence you are cut off from yourself, you are not a whole person.
If you shut down feeling, enclose yourself in a defense capsule, you will be afraid. Do this long enough and you will begin to believe in the fear, to believe in the irrational thoughts, believe that your peers are inherently sinful, believe the world is a bad or unsafe place, believe in the sensitive nature of your body, that you could be thrust into disease or death at a moments notice, you will be ..... anxious. It is first, in the mind, ever before you had your first physical symptoms.
Love your brothers, at least put yourself in their shoes, be kind and dignified, graceful, light and expect good things in your life. Dont wish for the old days but wish for new ones, even better, and most of all, do unto others........ you must understand the golden rule.
Shout out to Ponder my old friend, my fondest regards to you.
Some of you are not ready, willing, able to hear today, and to you I say be patient, your time will come. To all the rest I offer the following. We, most of us, experience GAD, not just the occasional anxiety or nervousness of say, a big test, or whatnot, but a daily struggle on many levels, emotionally and physiologically.
I say, then whatever point you may be in your journey, old or young, that no amount of medicine, supplements, self talk (CBT), or wishful thinking will bring you back into what we will call 'balance'. And especially, will not return you to your state 'pre' anxiety, where you felt at ease, so to speak, or as one would say, 'I feel like myself'. The truth is, 'myself' is evolving, you see, change is good, as that self grows.
Anxiety is an inner condition, a landscape of turmoil. But that landscape is psychological first, and colored, painted, by either experience, environment, parenting, and yes, somewhat DNA coding. You came into life to learn, stubborn or not, and learn you will, so some 'coding' was in place before you were even born. Your looks, your thoughts have been to an extent crafted by spirit and thrown into an environment conducive for needed lessons. How fast you learn can be alike to a vice grip, it will tighten and cause more confusion, suffering, meant to point out both the problem and solution.
Anxiety has its foundation in the spiritual world, where at some point one has lost his or her connection with feeling, rather the recognition of what it is like to feel, and above all, what it is like for others to feel. That connection with earth, your peers we will call empathy, compassion, to put yourself in anothers shoes, to expect in proportion to what you give. To receive in like to what you give, and to get, what you give. There is an anger underlying anxiety as oftentimes the expectations are that you cannot have what you want, even if you try and force them. Life is simply life, life is neutral, colored by a mass of people as an artist paints his emotions onto canvas.
Anxiety cannot be overcome by a set of instructions, in a book, or in one way or another written by another. Anxiety is personal to each of you, and although it would seem you have symptoms in common, the cause is your own and relevant to your stage of personal, psychological, and more importantly spiritual growth.
When the spirit is disconnected from the physical, because it is drowned out by the fantastic illusions of the material world, and when your thoughts become self centered above all.. When you lose the connection with your brothers and sisters - in a narcissistic sense - when you cannot feel, and validate your own feelings.. Then you have sacrificed the beauty in life, the world, the people and creatures, and I say sacrifice because you become shut out of anything and anyone lovely.. any love .. and as such any offered love would slip past unnoticed.
You have all had trauma in your past. You have all been brainwashed into a form of social engineering, a scheme, you have all been at the mercy of misguided and conflicted parents, you have all seen and heard scary things and become afraid of certain conditions. And to an extent of what we will call abuse, to the extent of this belief system you have, to the extent of this disconnection with empathy... This is the road ahead, this is the fear in the way, these are the hurdles toward a self that you cannot even imagine. If you suffer now, well, the old self is not what you want. This hard work is meant to craft and finely tune a new self, as it was said, you cannot put old wine in a new wine cloth (bag), as it would burst. You must be ready to accept the new wine.
Life is a spiritual journey, a means to an end, so to speak. The severed connections between the mind and spirit whatever they may be, are very personal, and individual to each of you. So there is not only one way. You must make your own way, you see, in this type of healing there would be no one against the other, no need for war or any crime of any sort. Through trauma, loss of love, abuse, abandonment, or simply ignorance, stupidity, you have all in one way or another turned a blind eye, and in the grand scheme, you see, you must open your eyes.
I am not suggesting you throw away your meds, be kind to yourself, suffering is never mandatory, you were not born evil or sinful, but what I am suggesting is you learn to feel again. Anxiety is only in your life because you shut down feeling, anxiety is a feeling. To some anxiety is their only way to feel. You must feel. Or the pot would explode. In some terms, anxiety is healthy, meant to lead you back to equilibrium. When spirit is disassociated, or closed off due to emotional pain, you receive no benefit from its still calmness, that speaks, everything is ok. You get lost in a world of turmoil, physically, trusting outer conditions rather than your own intuitive-ness. In essence you are cut off from yourself, you are not a whole person.
If you shut down feeling, enclose yourself in a defense capsule, you will be afraid. Do this long enough and you will begin to believe in the fear, to believe in the irrational thoughts, believe that your peers are inherently sinful, believe the world is a bad or unsafe place, believe in the sensitive nature of your body, that you could be thrust into disease or death at a moments notice, you will be ..... anxious. It is first, in the mind, ever before you had your first physical symptoms.
Love your brothers, at least put yourself in their shoes, be kind and dignified, graceful, light and expect good things in your life. Dont wish for the old days but wish for new ones, even better, and most of all, do unto others........ you must understand the golden rule.
Shout out to Ponder my old friend, my fondest regards to you.