I Feel Like Shit!

[gypsylee]

Ok, I deliberated over whether or not to censor the word "shit" in the title and decided not to because that's how this thread rolls.

I don't feel particularly shit today actually, but not great. I made 3000 posts here so in honour of that I give you this thread. I want blood, sweat and tears all over this thing. Just no drama queens or toxic people being nasty..

Talk hard.

Cheers,
Gypsy x

[martin05]

Not doing too bad either. Head is still pounding, but ibuprofen has helped somewhat.

Guess this post puts me in your drama queen category. :D

[gypsylee]

Hey Marty, nah drama queens are people who stir shit for the sake of it because they're bored.

[iwanttobeok]

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[gypsylee]

Thanks iwtbo :)

[iwanttobeok]

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[gypsylee]

That doesn't look like blood, sweat and tears, but still pretty cool :)

Just waking up here, which is the worst time for my anxiety, but I'm not too bad. Slept well again despite not having any benzos for over a week now. I've got a script for today so off to get that filled I think.

[iwanttobeok]

I gotchu fam


http://i3.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/original/000/965/514/706.png

[gypsylee]

Haha! I'm not sure about that but good bodies ;)

[martin05]

I gotchu fam


http://i3.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/original/000/965/514/706.png

Ugh! Real men are over weight and are rapidly losing their hair...



(At least that's what I keep telling myself ;))

[iwanttobeok]

Whatever helps you sleep at night martin ;)

[gypsylee]

Ugh! Real men are over weight and are rapidly losing their hair...



(At least that's what I keep telling myself ;))

You're young and virile though Martin.. :rolleyes: :cool:

[iwanttobeok]

http://img0.liveinternet.ru/images/attach/c/4/122/926/122926546_300_spartancev_v_Londonskom_metro4.jpg

martin's the guy in the back ;)

[martin05]

http://img0.liveinternet.ru/images/attach/c/4/122/926/122926546_300_spartancev_v_Londonskom_metro4.jpg

martin's the guy in the back ;)

Lol. The expression on his face is saying "just take my girlfriend and go!"

[martin05]

You're young and virile though Martin.. :rolleyes: :cool:

You know me so well! :cool:

[gypsylee]

http://img0.liveinternet.ru/images/attach/c/4/122/926/122926546_300_spartancev_v_Londonskom_metro4.jpg

martin's the guy in the back ;)

Oh the guy right at the back? LOL.

[robert07]

Ok, I deliberated over whether or not to censor the word "shit" in the title and decided not to because that's how this thread rolls.

I don't feel particularly shit today actually, but not great. I made 3000 posts here so in honour of that I give you this thread. I want blood, sweat and tears all over this thing. Just no drama queens or toxic people being nasty..

Talk hard.

Cheers,
Gypsy x


Congrats on 3000! And I hope you feel better soon!!

[gypsylee]

Thanks. I'm actually pretty good at the moment but I wanted to make this thread for people to share their bad days. I posted about it in General Discussion a while back and like to keep my promises :)

[gypsylee]

Well last night I actually felt sociable (40mg of Prozac kicking in?) and went to an AA meeting for the first time in 10 years! It was good.. I love the realism, acceptance and courage of the people at AA. I even went up the front and shared, despite my terror of speaking in front of people. I'm planning on going to more meetings.. Maybe even tonight :)

[iwanttobeok]

Needs more bs&t :p
Anyway,
even if it's "anonymous", you still need those traits you mentioned to show up :)

[Barong Baj Baj]

So i feel pretty shitty. Its a rainy English day and i have a constant feeling of frustration and nervousness. I am surviving it but i got fucking tight stressed shoulders, the week's stress compacted there. Fucking me off but shitness is just a feeling and will pass!

[gypsylee]

Ok I really do feel like shit atm. Went to sleep early but woke up needing the bathroom at 2am and wide awake now. PMS? I don't even know this month..

Same old shit in my personal life - feeling too intense for "normal" people.. Like I gotta tone it down. "Don't be like an avalanche Gypsy" pffffft.

https://youtu.be/q-H3yLtrHPo

[Twichard]

Feeling shite you're not alone I've not slept all night it's now 5 am in Scotland looking like yet another sleepless night feeling so tired but Just can't find pice of mind or stop thing's going around in my head nothing in particular just low thoughts Im feed up with not getting sleep night and day just become one only difference is I am in bed wishing for sleep

[gypsylee]

Hey thanks for posting here guys.

I'm in a rage because the trucks on the freeway woke me up at 4am. If I don't sleep with earplugs that's what happens because the traffic is SO loud from about 4 in the goddamn morning. The road people have tested the noise level and apparently it "isn't enough to warrant a barrier" but it's enough to affect my quality of life and seriously piss me off. Then I tried logging on here with my ipad and the wifi wanted the password *smashes head against the wall* #firstworldproblems

So now it's 5:30am and I'm in bed with tea and a hot water bottle, which is better than being in the trucks/cars on the freeway I guess, but even I can't escape the noise..

Jim Morrison/The Doors - "You're all a bunch of fucking slaves!" Five to One
https://youtu.be/UGAb8WAmWOc

[Twichard]

Hopefully you'll get some rest just don't let them light you're fire try stay cool hopefully :cool:

[gypsylee]

I'm still up (8am now in Melbourne) but I talked to my friend in Europe and she always makes me laugh..

[Ponder]

I know this is a bit late gypsy but I left a comment in the what are you listening to thread → here (http://anxietyforum.net/forum/showthread.php?31154-What-are-you-listening-to-right-now&p=241118#post241118)

Here's hoping you have a good sleep tonight.

[gypsylee]

Thanks Ponder, I took a look and have seen that film (and enjoyed it) :)

I'm actually sick as a dog at the moment and have been for a few days. I'm pretty sure it's hormones (similar to morning sickness but I'm 100% not pregnant). It's the beginning of the end lol ie. menopause. I'm only 43 but had my tubes tied when I was 38 and been having symptoms of this for about two years - adrenaline rushes, insomnia, nausea, and now my period has disappeared in the last couple of months surprise, surprise! Sorry for TMI but I'm just lying in bed feeling like shit. This isn't something you hear much about in the mainstream compared to pregnancy, but I can tell you it's very real and quite nasty. Your wife may have gone through it Ponder? It affects all women differently though. I've always had bad PMS and bad morning sickness, so I guess I'm sensitive to hormones *puke*

[Ponder]

Yes, I know all I need to know. :) lisa's is compounded with her MS making it a double whammy for both of us. It's another reason I practice zen.

Hope your feeling better today?

[gypsylee]

Oh no.. Poor woman (and man!)

Yeah I am, thanks :)

[gypsylee]

Dreamt I was a Jew running from the Nazis during the Holocaust. Really scary stuff. Many years ago I dreamt I was in a group of people and the Nazis rounded us up on a staircase and shot me in the head (through the forehead). I can still picture it pretty clearly - everything went black and I woke up. I've never had much to do with WW2 but my mother's family fled the Russians from Latvia. They weren't Jewish but had Jews come to their house asking for shelter from the Nazis.

So in last night's dream I was with a whole lot of people and we had to keep going from place to place as the Nazis tracked us down. It was horrible..

[gypsylee]

So I've been AWOL from AF for a bit because I've been seeing someone.. It's a f'en rollercoaster of emotions but I'm certainly no stranger to the whole relationship game, ugh.

Today I got my first tattoo (at 43 haha). It was a great experience and I always feel much more comfortable around the people in tattoo stores. The tatt is on my forearm and it's the lyric in my signature by Tool. It looks awesome if I do say so myself and it's good therapy. I'm already planning another one (a spiral further up the arm).

Peace out,
Gypsy x

[gypsylee]

Can't sleep because of this horrible restless leg thing FML.

[adkellstrom]

trying to figure out what works and what doesnt because this panic crap is annoying.

[gypsylee]

I went to AA again last night and really enjoyed it. Not in the way you enjoy a concert lol but just the vibe of being around these courageous, honest, real people. I felt more grounded afterward and I think I should start going regularly. I chatted to a guy during smoke break and he told me about a meeting tonight near my place, so I'm going to go to that.

:)

[rebeccamcclellan]

Haha! I'm not sure about that but good bodies ;)

Haha! exactly

[gypsylee]

Went to sleep at about 10:30pm then woken at 5am by traffic because I didn't have my earplugs in, ugh. It's now 6:45am and I'm sitting here listening to music, drinking tea and smoking cigarettes as usual. Go me.

[martin05]

Went to sleep at about 10:30pm then woken at 5am by traffic because I didn't have my earplugs in, ugh. It's now 6:45am and I'm sitting here listening to music, drinking tea and smoking cigarettes as usual. Go me.

Surely you mean "10:30 am"? :o

[Ponder]

Lol @ Go me. Going to meets sure can be challenging but quit rewarding when amoung peers that understand each other. I'm thinking of seeking out a new group myself. Hope the traffic sounds become more tolerable Gypsy.

[gypsylee]

Oh hey guys :)

Martin.. 10:45am/pm.. All the same to me ;)

Thanks Ponder.

[gypsylee]

Ok I feel really flat today. The fact it’s Cup Weekend and all the tourists come down here doesn’t help. I need milk but it might have to wait until tonight. Where I live there’s no little store you can get to on back streets - you have to go out onto the highway, which joins the freeway, and go into town (which will inevitably be packed with tourists). I really hate the location of this place and wish I could move. When I look at the price of real estate around here I’m just grateful to have a roof over my head though.

I haven’t read a book in a while so I bought one on iBooks which was recommended to me ages ago. Burial Rites by Hannah Kent; about a woman sentenced to death in Iceland in the 1800s.

The female bearded dragon is digging non-stop and annoying me so much I have to put earplugs in. All day I hear scratch-scratch-scratch.

My shoulder/neck is killing me from the way I lie on my bed on my side.

For some reason I’ve always disliked Saturdays like my mother dislikes Sundays. That’s my whinge for today.. I will try and immerse myself in this book.

[gypsylee]

There comes a point when you’re waiting for someone where you just lose it. I’m a very punctual person and HATE being late, but there are a lot of people who make you wait like there’s no tomorrow. I’ve had a pretty shitty day and now I’m so frustrated and angry I can’t even focus on a basic computer game. I think I’m actually going to cry I’m that fed up waiting :mad:

[martin05]

There comes a point when you’re waiting for someone where you just lose it. I’m a very punctual person and HATE being late, but there are a lot of people who make you wait like there’s no tomorrow. I’ve had a pretty shitty day and now I’m so frustrated and angry I can’t even focus on a basic computer game. I think I’m actually going to cry I’m that fed up waiting :mad:

Did you manage to communicate to them how frustrated you were with their behavior?

[gypsylee]

Hey Martin.. No I did not haha :rolleyes:

[debbie23]

I was on medication but it made me feel weird so now I use Mantra Magnets. They're magnets you clip onto your ear lobes that vibrate as a neuro-therapy tool and reset your amygdala. I love them! They really help.

[gypsylee]

Can I just stick my vibrator in my ear instead?

[martin05]

Can I just stick my vibrator in my ear instead?

Best not. Knowing you your vibrator is a jackhammer.

[debbie23]

Can I just stick my vibrator in my ear instead?

Oh Lord Jesus no that will make all your problems much much worse

[gypsylee]

Oh Lord Jesus no that will make all your problems much much worse

Hahahahahaha

[Dahila]

Can I just stick my vibrator in my ear instead?

Gypsy heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee you made my day !!!! the best one is why some vibrations control heheeeeeeeeeeeeee

[gypsylee]

Gypsy heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee you made my day !!!! the best one is why some vibrations control heheeeeeeeeeeeeee

Ha! My work here is done :cool:

[Dahila]

Ha! My work here is done :cool:

:cool:,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

[salvator here]

LMAO!!!

Talk about a 'Mindf*ck'

[Ponder]

Well ... at least there are some relaxing elements to be found in AF after all D. At least a few interesting tools laying about with which to help one cope with Anxiety and Depression. Whatever works ... right?

[nathalia1011]

we are free to posts what we rally want and what do we want to express it's like our friend where we can share some of our problems.